I walk back to the bus to put on more cover up. I touch the spot where Austin’s lips touched. I smile. I walk outside with a positive new attitude. I walk on set and realize the fans outside. I can hear them chant outside. I walk onstage and grab my notebook from my open guitar case. I write a couple more lyrics. I think this will make the perfect chorus.
I had die every day waiting for you.
Darling don’t be afraid, I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more
It was a song I’ve been working on for a year. It is about Austin. I never really had the guts to show anyone the song or even hum it. Miley knows me too well. She’ll pick it up and automatically know whose it about. So I never show it to any of them. I only work on it when I’m alone.
“Ellie!” I drop the pen and notebook. I quickly shove it in my case and turn around. Miley was grinning at me. She peered her head behind me. “Are you writing a new song for the album?”
“NO!” I scream. She jumps back at my sudden burst of energy. “I mean,” I gather myself. “It’s just a song. Nothing much.”
“Oh, let me read!”
“NO!” she looks at me again. I’m giving up away too much information. “I mean, it’s not done yet. No one, I mean no one can read it.” She nods, but gives me a questioning look. She walks away and I relax. I walk away to the grass and sing.
“Heart beats fast colors and promises. How to brave? How can I love when I’m afraid to fall but watching you stand alone. All of my doubts suddenly goes away somehow. One step closer. I had died every day waiting for you. Darling don’t be afraid I’ve have loved you for a thousand years I’ll love you for a thousand more.
Time stands still beauty in all she is. I will be brave I will not let anything take away what’s standing in front of me every breath every hour has come to this. One step closer I had died every day waiting for you. Darling don’t be afraid, I’ve have loved you for a thousand years, I’ll love you for a thousand more. And all along I believe I will find you time has brought your heart to me I’ve had loved you for a thousand years, I ‘ll love you for a thousand more……..” humph. It need more.
“That was amazing.” I turn around and scream.
“Vic, what are you doing here? Go away! Shoo! Shoo!” I yell at him, swiping my hands towards him.
“What’s wrong? Am I not supposed to hear the song?” he challenges.
“NO! no one is! Now go!” I said, tears on the brim of my eyes.
“Why? Who is it about?” he asks stepping forward.
“Don’t worry about it. Go away Vic.” Tears are slowly trailing down my face. This song always gets me emotionally. It has so much meaning in it. So much that they will never understand.
“Ellie-” I cut him off with a hand.
“Not now Vic.” I get up and walk away. It seems that lately, no one understands how much history me and Austin had together. The only way I can really explain it is through lyrics, but I can’t let anyone see them. They’ll think the opposite.
“My eyes. Have once again, been proven wrong. Your cloud. Your blanket and my pity song.” I love Passion Pit. One day I hope to meet them or even better tour with them. I remember that one date Austin took me on. It was at a park. We walked the bridge and looked at the creek below. Passion Pit was playing and at the time, I didn’t know who they were. But soon I fell in love with them. “……Now slowly leave my memory.”
~3 hours later~
We walked on stage and the crowd goes wild. I can see the smile plastered on everyone’s faces. We love our job. We love making people happy. We play an intro, which is the cover version of Waiting. We play two of our songs and we jump and prance around the stage while I scream my heart out and Miley crowd surfs. On our last song, Ryan and I switch places. I walk up to the microphone, Ryan’s guitar in hand. My mom shipped my Fender here, but Vic says I can keep his. But for this show, I will be using my Fender. But for this song, Ryan has my guitar. I wrote the song for the fans, but I wrote in a guy’s point of view. I wrote one specific line for Ryan personally, “Feeling high”. I had Ryan and David help me think of lyrics and I think it came out well.
“Hello Nevada!” cheers. A random person screams “I love you.”
“We’re doing something a little different today. I wrote a very special song, but today, you’re going to hear our lead guitarist Ryan sing it today! Who’s ready for that?!” more cheers as Ryan takes the stage.
“Hey there.” He pauses. “Nevada.” He says in a seductive voice, making every girl almost die. “Can I hear those ovaries explode today?!!!” he yells into the mic. “And guys, those testicles are gonna be popping too!” he laughs. He must be really chill. He turns his head to us. “1….2…” we start playing.
“This is life, life, life. This is the life, life, life. This is life, life, life. This is the life, life, life. Four in the back, We're pullin' up in the yard. Out in the streets, Somebody's lookin' out for cop cars. Girls on the roof. Say, "Hey, we're stepping' inside." It looks like a scene out of American Pie. Now we're locked in the bathroom, Just me and Danielle. Runnin' the showers, So we can't hear 'em yell. Out at the pool, There's lawn chairs in the water. Did you see Ronnie try to kiss Bruce Willis' daughter? Somebody pulled his pants down
This is life as we know it. Feeling high. Never growin' up. We party all night, feelin' alright yeah. Party all night, let me hear you say, "Yeah". This is life as we know it. We can die. When we're older baby. Party all night, feelin' alright yeah. Party all night, let me hear you say "Yeah"
This is life, life, life. This is the life, life, life. This is life, life, life. This is the life, life, life
Now we're crankin' the anthem. It's Guns 'N Roses and Queen. Livin' it up. Baby, we're livin the dream. Some dude is runnin' 'round naked. We're laughin' out loud. There's nowhere else I'd rather be but here and now. So come on shout it out loud,”
“Shout it out loud.” Me and Miley back up.
“This is life as we know it. Feeling high. Never growin' up. We party all night, feelin' alright yeah. Party all night, let me hear you say "Yeah". This is life as we know it. We can die, When we're older baby. Party all night, feelin' alright yeah. Party all night, let me hear you say "Yeah"
When the sun comes up tomorrow, We won't regret anything We don't got no rules to follow. We can do it all over again”
“Do it all over again” I look to the crowd who is swaying or clapping to the beat.
“This is life, life, life. This the life, life, life. This is life, life, life. This is the life, life, life. This is life as we know it. Feeling' high. Never growin' up. We party all night, feelin' alright yeah. Party all night, let me hear you say "Yeah". This is life as we know it. We can die. When we're older baby. Party all night, feelin' alright yeah. Party all night, let me hear you say "Yeah"
This is life, life, life. This is the life, life, life. This is life, life, life. This is the life, life, life. This is life, life, life. This is the life, life, life. This is life, life, life. This is the life, life, life.” The fans are loving it. Some are in tears and others are huddle over. I guess from ovaries and testicles being exploded.
“WE love you Nevada!” we all yell into our microphones and we run off stage. David is waiting for my by the sideline. I run to him and he picks me up and spins me around.
“You guys did amazing!” he yells. I kiss him on the cheek and watch him run on stage. I know my dad would be proud. I smile at the thought. I need to go apologize to Vic. I walk over to his bus to find him sitting on the ground. He looks up as I approach.
“Hey.” I put my hand up but quickly put it at my side.
“Hey.” He looks up and quickly back down.
“I’m sorry!” I blurt. He gets up and wraps his arms around my head. Curse my height.
“Hey you have nothing to be sorry about. It’s your personal song.” I smile. He understands. “So, are you ready for our date tonight?!” I giggle.
“You were serious?” I ask. I thought it was the effect of the alcohol.
“Yeah. I may have been drunk,”
“And stoned.” I mumbled.
“Yea, but I meant it. We’ve been dating for four days. I’m taking you out. I’ll be at your bus at seven.” I nod and peck his lips. I run to the interview tent and sit next to Austin. I begin to twirl the Squidgy necklace around and he puts Squidgy himself on his shoulder. A man came in with two camera men and sat in front of us.
“Recording in five…….four……three…..two…..one…..HEY! I’m Jack Albright and today with me we have Austin Carlile from Of Mice and Men and Ellie Schmitt from Sorry Not Sorry.”
“Hey peeps.” Austin said. I shyly waved in front of the camera, my stomach was battling with me.
“So, I see Squidgy has made a return.” Austin smiles and looks over his shoulder.
“Yeah, he’s chilling.” Austin has on a The Only Coke I Diet shirt and ripped skinny jeans.
“And I see Ellie has a Squidgy necklace. Tell me where did you get it from?”
“Sorry people, one of a kind, not for sale.” I smirk.
“Okay! We’re going to play This or That. We’ll start off with Austin. Coke or Pepsi?”
“Pepsi.”
“Coke.” Austin smiles.
“The little mermaid or Cinderella?”
“Little mermaid.” Austin said. I laugh. “What? It’s true.”
“Yeah because you like her for her boobs!”
“What?!” Austin does in a fake surprise voice.
“Nickelodeon or Disney?”
“Disney.”
“Nickelodeon.”
“WHAT?! WHY?! Disney has all the princesses, like the Little Mermaid, Cinderella, Sleeping Beauty.” He uses his finger to hit his hand as if making a point.
“Austin, their boobs are not real!” I throw my hands up.
“Tattoos or piercings?” it takes a while to think about it, but we both say the same thing, “Tattoos.”
“Speaking of which, you both have a nose ring and a couple tats of your own.” I nodded.
“Yeah, I have music notes behind my ear, as you can see a rose sleeve, and a best friend tattoo on my foot. One says Friends are Temporally Best friends are forever.” He points the camera at my foot.
"When'd you get your sleeve done."
"Uhm, two years ago." Like actually, three days after Austin dumped me, not that I would say that on camera. But I can tell Austin is matching up the dates because he shifts towards me.
“Okay, last one, hot or cold?”
“Hot.”
“Cold.” Austin glares at me.
“How do you two know each other so well?” Jack asks obvious of the stares.
“Uh, we use to date.” Austin mumbles. I begin to fidget with the ends of my skirt.
"Really?"
"Yeah, I was in love with her." Jack nods. Austin mutters something under his breath but I couldn't hear what it was.
“Okay, any good pickup lines?”
“Oh, okay, I know one, how much does a polar bear weigh?” Austin turns his head to me. I know what he’s up to.
“God, no Austin.”
“PRETEND! Okay, “how much?”” he says in a girly voice. “And then you’re supposed to say “Enough to break the ice.” No one even cracks a smile. A tech man was walking by when Austin called out to him. “Hey! How much does a polar bear weigh? “
“Enough to break the ice!” he yells back as he walks on. I begin to laugh. The interview goes on for ten more minutes. It consisted of Never have I ever, Would you rather, and other silly little games.
“Okay, last question, I you had a chance to be anybody in your band, who would it be?” Austin leaned back in his chair.
“Hmmm.” I began to think. Not Ryan, for sure. Miley maybe, ohhh. I know.
“Max. Our drummer.” I say. “Because, he’s like that popular person who never gets blame for crap, like leaving the fucking seat up and there’s piss on the seat. He never gets blamed. And I would like to see how girls think of me.”
“I would probably be Phil. Because I mean it would be awesome to fart and not get blame. I mean honestly that man needs to air freshen out his farts!” he yells loud enough. In response you can hear Phil laugh.
“Okay, that’s all the time we have today. Thank you guys.” We nod and take off. I run to my bus to make it to our interview. I had to go through a maze of chords and sound equipment before I find my band seated on the couch. I take a seat between Miley and Max.
“Hey everybody! This is Jeff and we have Sorry Not Sorry with us. How are you guys?”
“Good.” We all reply.
~Austin~

Idiot. You can't just mutter out I'm still in love with her. You're not supposed to be in love with your ex Austin!!
I walk on Ellie’s tour bus and see their in the middle of an interview. Ellie is laughing and joking around with her band mates. I love that smile that she has with or without the sunglasses it will always be my favorite. She turns her head to Ryan and plants a kiss on his lips. Everyone is laughing as he struggles to grasp what’s happening. She pulls away and looks like she dying of laughter. Ryan gets up and yells “FOUL!” and Ellie gets up and slaps him across the face. even the interviewer is laughing.
“Okay so do you guys have any upcoming tour dates we need to set our calendars for?”
“Yes! September 8th. We, along with All Time Low and Of Mice & Men are going to start our headline tour together with Tonight Alive.” Miley states. “The tour runs until December 20th. And mark your calendars for Warped 2013 because Sorry Not Sorry are playing.”
“Wow. Two years of Warped why is that?”
“We have a new album coming out! The only thing we are allowed to give away is the title and possible cover.” Ellie exclaims.
“Which is?”
“Perpetual. It’s a synonym for everlasting. We feel like our music will have an everlasting effect on people. One cover we like is having a picture of the everlasting symbol.” She bounces. I can see through her sunglasses and her eyes are sparkling.
“What kind of music can we expect on the album?”
“Totally something new. We took some inspiration from Pierce the Veil, Falling in Reverse and Breathe Carolina. We wanted to stick with our Post-Hardcore title but go with different ranges. There’s a new single on the album that Ryan sings that is totally different than what we normally do. it’s kinda associated with pop. And Ellie doesn’t sound the same as she did two years ago. We really want to shock people.”
“How did you get the inspiration?” yeah, how? Even I’m wondering.
“We listen to how they sound now, which is awesome. But then we compare them to how they sounded two years ago. Some may think the same, but it’s different.” Ryan pitches in.
“It is. Two years ago, my brother had a different sound. Kinda electron type. But now, like Blackout for example, it’s kinda in the punk rock direction different. We use it as inspiration and a way to push ourselves to do better.”
“Okay, nice. Now let’s move to relationship status. We all know Ellie is dating Vic. But Miley, rumor has it your dating Oli Sykes from Bring Me the Horizon, is it true?” Jeff is on the edge of his seat.
“Actually, it is.” She smiles.
“Well, the two girls are taken, what about the guys?” none of them even look up.
“Okay. Awkward. Any advice for today’s generation?”
“YES! Listen up you peasants! Smoke some weed, drink some cherry vodka, wear condoms, and stay in school.” Ellies lays back on the couch and crosses her legs. Ryan leans back and fist pumps her.
“Couldn’t said it any better myself.” Miley rolls her eyes and takes the mic.
“Ignore those two. Stay strong and if all fails, just listen to music.”
“We love you!” Max yells. Jeff cuts the cameras and I walk to Ellie.
“Ellie!” she looks at me and hugs me.
“Hey Austin. Are you excited for our headline tour?!” she yells.
“Tots.” She pulls away and smooths her dress down.
“No. Don’t say that.” she checks the time and screams. “Miley it’s ten minutes to seven! I’m going to be late!”
“Well go! We’ll do the meet and greet without you! Hey, no sex!” Miley yells from the bunks.
“Austin I have to go. See you later?” I nod and she takes off to the back. But why can't you just see me now?
~Ellie~
I grab my dress and pull it up. I have five minutes left. I put on my burgundy Vans. I put my ankle bracelet on and ditch the necklace. I un-do my braid and my hair falls into a wavy mess. I put on cover up, brush my teeth add a little mascara and put on my sunglasses so we can go in without being noticed. I smooth my dress down and walk out the bus. Standing in front of me is Vic.
“You look beautiful.” He barley whispers. We stare into each other’s eyes and a memory hits.
*Flashback.*
“No!!!!” I giggle. Austin lifts me up and throws me over his shoulder.
“I’ll love you forever no matter what. Okay?”
“Okay.” I giggle.
“Now, remember if we break up and we start dating, to not think about me. okay. Don’t let me ruin your night. If I pop in your mind, think about something else.” He looks at me as we near his house.
“Okay. Why are you telling me this?”
“I-don’t worry about it.”
*flashback over*
To this day I still don’t know what the reason is. But instead I think about dead love of my life. I would like to think he’s playing match maker right now.
“And you look handsome.” He takes my hand and we walk out of the venue. We walk around town most of the night. He tells me about his family and about Mike, Tony, and Jaime since I barley know them. We eat dinner at a not so fancy restaurant. More like a Mexican place. But no complaints. This leads up right to this very moment.
“So. How do you like the date?” he asks.
“It’s nice! Even though, simply going to a taco truck would’ve been fine.” He laughs and chokes on his drink.
“No. no more taco trucks.” My phone begins to ring. I changed it to Ohioisonfire. I like that song better, mainly because I got trampled to it. I look at it and see it’s my brother. I let I go to voicemail.
“Why not! I like taco trucks. Creepy and weird yes, but I love them.” I say. I pick around my salad while Vic chomps down his second burrito.
“Hey.” Vic hand lands on top of mines. “Why aren’t you eating?” I look up and give him a small smile. “Just like at the taco truck. You never ate. Are you anorexic?” he asks. I don’t meet his eyes. I just give him a small nod. He squeezes my hand and asks a waiter over so we could pay. When I say we, I mean him. We walk out of El Tacito and Vic takes my hand. He laces our fingers and walks to a nearby water fountain. We hear The Balcony Scene play from a nearby radio.
“May I have this dance?” he asks. I bite my lip, but nod in agreement. Because of my height, I have to stand on his shoes. He twirls us around and sways us.
“So. Your brother seems really fond of me.” he smirks. I laugh and lean my head onto his chest.
“I guess you could say that.” I don’t know why David hates Vic. He seems like a sweet guy. David was always fond of Austin. We walk away from the fountain and make our way back to the venue.
“I’m sorry for ruining the date.” If it weren’t for my stupid insecure personality we could’ve had a normal date.
“Don’t be. I still had fun. It wasn’t anything over the top. All I needed was you.” We walk back in silence. His arm over my neck while mines rest around his waist. When we arrive at my bus I turn to face him.
“Thank you.” He leans down and gives me a kiss. It wasn’t anything heated, it was very passionate. His hands cups my face as my hands are on his chest. His tongue enters my mouth and the sweet taste of tacos enter. I laugh and pull away.
“Goodnight Vic.”
“Goodnight Ellie.” I watch him walk away and I frown to myself. I walk onto the bus and scream.

Notes

Date Guys, forgot to say, Ellie's blonde. Dyed blonde. And thank you all so much for all the feedback!!!
And who else heard about the Woe, Is Me break up. I'm sooo sad. I love them.