My Understandings

Ten minutes passed. No one knew what to do or say. Austin just stared at the wall and it scared me. I couldn't breathe, move, or speak. I wanted to comfort Austin but nothing I say will matter.
"Ellie," He whispered. I turned to look at him. "I-I-I want you to leave. I want to be alone." I nodded and got up, dressing, and grabbing my bag. Austin followed me down the stairs his sniffles still present. As I walked out, he slammed the door behind me making me jump. The car ride home was quiet and sobbed filled. Once I got to my house, I opened the door and saw everyone huddled around, tears in their eyes. I walked passed them, not saying a word. I dropped my bag by the backdoor and went out to call Oli.
He picked up on the fourth ring.
"Hello?"
"Hey, are you okay?"
"No."
"I'm sorry." I said, knowing he and Mitch were close as well.
"Don't feed me that bullshit. Okay? You will never know the pain I'm going through! Mitch and I were close and I just lost my best fucking friend! So shut the fuck up before you give me any of that 'sorry' shit."
"Oliver! What the hell is your problem?! Mitch and I were close too! I told him secrets I don't even tell Austin and he helped me so much! He even visited me int the hospital before he properly knew me! And I do know the pain! Because he was in Huntington Beach. Austin and I were there, we could've stopped him, done something to prevented his death and it's all our fault!!! I don't see you jumping the gun to travel across the ocean to save his ass from a motorcycle accident! I just lost something important to me besides my fucking father!!!! And the fact that you have the nerve....Do you know how Jolie is feeling? Of course not cause all you care is how you fucking feel and I bet you Kennadee isn't taking it well either cause she just lost her goddamn father!! So Oliver, go fuck yourself because you don't understand a damn thing and I don't know what the hell Miley sees in you." I spat before hanging up and letting more tears fall.
I can't believe this. Why him? Why? Mitch had so much going for him.
I left the house again and went to Jolie's. She wouldn't answer the door, any calls or texts, but her screams were audible. At least she's still alive.
I drove to Long Beach and sat on the cliff. The wind was angry and the waves were choppy. I guess even the beach knows what happened. I sighed and brought my knees up to my chin.
"So, you came here too?" Arms wrapped around me and I was pulled against someone's chest.
"Followed me?" David sighed against me ear.
"It's going to be okay. Austin will, everyone will." He rubbed my arm and I leaned my head on his chest as we stared into the ocean.
"I know. I just wish everything would be okay right now."
"I rather die for what I believe than live a life without meaning." He said. "Maybe, life just didn't having a meaning for him anymore and it was just his time." And that sparked me an idea. I took out my phone and sent out a text to Austin, Oliver, Jolie, and everyone else who knew Mitch. Everything will be okay, maybe not now, but they will.
Text message: I rather die for what I believe than live a life without meaning. I need to understand what we've grown to be.

Notes

Sorry it's so short. Wasn't feeling that inspirational. Until I heard Understanding What We've Grown To Be by We Came As Romans. It's so beautiful.
Understanding What We've Grown To Be