My Understandings

“Well. This should be…..uh, fun?” even Miley didn’t know what to think of this. I wonder what Oli would think. “How much until we get to our next venue?” she asked me, I tried to grab my phone, but my hand kept touching Andy’s hand, which he kept jerking away, making it difficult.
“Be still!” I hissed. He grunted, but obeyed. I took my phone out and checked the time, three in the afternoon. I groaned. “About another 24 hours.” Everyone groaned. They should feel lucky as cheese; I have Andy for God’s sakes!!!!
“Well, to pass the time, how about a movie?” Kyle asked, he handcuffed himself to Josh.
“Yeah!” Max yelled. Ryan was twitching, hands are shaking, but he didn’t want anyone to see it, I could tell by the way he cracked his knuckles.
“SAW!!!” all of the WCAR guys yelled. My band nodded in agreement, so did I, but I hate Saw. It’s scary. Last time I watched it was with Austin…….
I used my free hand to wipe a tear. A squeeze on my thigh shocked me as Andy looked at me with concerned eyes. I put on a fake smile and turned my attention to the movie. Well, I really couldn’t pay attention; everything about this movie reminded me of Austin. Even when they cut their wrist to fill the thingy up with blood, it made me want Austin next to me. my hands began to shake as I tried to hold in my tears. A sniffle escapes my throat and I looked around to see if anyone noticed.
No one.
Good.
Except for Andy.
He looked at me, but I ignored it. But I couldn’t ignore the warm feeling of his hands, the handcuffed one, sliding its way into my hand. Our fingers lacing together as he gave them a tight squeeze. I didn’t know what to do, do I squeeze back? Why should I? He is a jerk! Before I could do anything, he quickly snatched back his hand and he glared at me. Nice to know some things never change.
~Andy~
Andy dude what the hell is wrong whit you?!?! You see her cry and hold her hand?! Why?! She doesn’t like you and never will!!! But I did anyway. I heard her sob, so I decided to hold her hand. I didn’t know if it was the movie or what. But as soon as I did, I realized after I squeezed it, she wasn’t going to do anything about it. So being the dumbass I am, I snatched it back. She rolled her eyes and took out her phone. The lock screen is a pic of her and Austin Carlile kissing. She quickly unlocked her screen and went to her messaged. Most of them were blown up by Austin and Alan. I caught some key words like sorry, can we talk, I wonder what happened. She saw me looking and she locked her screen. But a message brightened the screen up, revealing the two kissing. It was a message from Austin. She sighed. So, I did what I would do, I snatched her phone.
“Andy, hand me my phone.” I slid the screen unlocked, typing in her passcode I saw her enter, and typed a reply. “Andy, I don’t want to be this close to either, so like you, I want you to respect my privacy and hand me my phone!” she hissed low enough for only me to hear. But I ignored her and typed a reply.
Hey Austin, Andy here from WCAR. Ellie would really appreciate it if you stopped texting her, we’re trying to enjoy our time together. ;)
I sent the message and Austin didn’t reply. I handed the phone to Ellie who had a smirk plastered on her. I turned to look at her and our eyes locked for the second time since we met. Before I could stop myself the words rolled out of my mouth.
“If you are checking me out, I would appreciate itif you stop, you’re not my type.” As soon as I said it, I regretted it. Dummy! Why would you say that! She turned her attention back to the movie but she was fiddling her phone with her fingers. I saw a tear hit the phone screen. I turned my attention to the movie and mentally killed myself.
~Ellie~
Why does everything he says affect me? it shouldn’t because I don’t care for him. But I’ve been hurt enough to know that it will always hurt. When my dad died,I got myself into horrible friendships. Now Andy feels like an ex-friend with the rude remarks and glares. He acts sweet one minute and a complete jerk the next. When the movie ended, about ten, we watch the whole Saw series! Go me!, everyone went to bed. Except Andy, who had to pee.
“I’m not going in there while you piss!” I yelled. I didn’t want to leave the couch, nice and comfy, to watch him pee.
“Well, then I hope you like the smell of pee on your clothes.” I groaned and got up with him to the bathroom.
“Why can’t you hold it like everyone else?!” I whisper-yell.
“Because, I’m not like everyone else.” He says bluntly. I didn’t know what to say. He dragged us to the bathroom, where I sit on the counter while he pees. When I thought he wasn’t looking, I noticed the tattoo right where the V-line to his, er-penis, is. The tattoo says. “Say Ahhhh” weird.
It took all my might not to stare, but when he was done, I was forced to wash hands with him. While washing our hands, the back of our hands touched, both of us froze. I felt his fingers trying to lace with my fingers. But the moment was ruined when he came to his senses. He snatched his hand away and dried it. I quietly chuckled to myself. I’m being more of an idiot to think that he has a nice side.
When we got back to the couch, we decided to watch TV. When I say decided, I mean argue over who gets the remote. I snatched it from him and began flicking through the channels when he stops me.
“Ellie.” I look at him but he’s looking at my free arm. The one covered in scars. I forgot about it!
“I-uh-it’s,”
“What happened?” he asked.
“Why do you care?” I snap. “You do nothing but make me feel worse anyway.”
“I’m sorry.” I haven’t cut in three days, since Andy came. I was going to the day me and Vic broke up, but Andy always preoccupies my mine. I get up, dragging me with him to go to bed. I climb the bunk and face the wall. Andy spoons me and before I fall under I hear him whisper two words to me.
“You’re beautiful.”
That snaps me awake.
“Andy?” I questioned. But the soft snore from behind me indicates that he has fallen asleep. How am I gonna go to sleep when my enemy has told me the sweetest thing ever? Andy’s grip on my waist tightens as he pulls me closer.
Does he really think I’m beautiful?
I don’t allow myself to think. I just snuggle myself closer in his arms and fall asleep.
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Being warm was the most wonderful feeling in the world. I love the feeling of my pillow comforting my neck, the blankets tangled between my legs, the feeling of the morning sunlight shining. The two sets of even breathing…….
Two sets of even breathing?!?!
“Ellie.” Someone mumbled. I used my hand to rub my eye when another hand hit my face. “Ellie.” My groggy eyes would not open, but yet someone else was here. “Ellie.” Oh God. I’m dead, its Jesus calling me.
“God?” I ask.
“Ellie, move over.” I snap my eyes open to see my hand on my face with handcuffs on it. The other hand belongs to……..
“ANDY WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN MY BED?!?!?! WHY ARE YOU SHIRTLESS?!?!?!”I screamed. He scooted back from me, falling on the floor, dragging me with him. I fell on top of him and rolled off.
“Damn it!” his lip was now bleeding. My lip too is bleeding. “Your fucking nose ring cut my lip!” He snaps.
“Well you stupid lips crushed mine, making my lip bleed.” I spat. I got up and yanked Andy to the window. We’re here!
“We’re here.” I say to Andy. He yanks me from the window and walks to the lounge. No one is in sight and we really need to find Kyle. We walk back to the bunks to get a shirt for him.
“Here, can you put this on?” I ask.
“Yeah, but I’ll need help.” He said, lifting up our handcuffed hands. I grabbed the shirt and tried to put it over his head.
“Here-just-shove-ugh-nuff-argh!” I pushed him against the wall and yank the shirt over his head.
“It’s not gonna work!” he yanked me and shoved me against the wall. Our breathing was ragged, I mean, I tried to shove a shirt over his head. His face was inches from mine, our lips so close, i could feel his breathing on my lips. “I can’t do this.” He breathed.
“Do what?” the shirt? Well, blame Kyle.
“Promise me when I do this you won’t run off.” I laughed.
“Where am I going to go? We’re handcuffed together.”
“Yeah-I-never mind. Let’s go find Kyle.” He yanked me along with him, the cuffs digging into my wrist. We ran through the venue, looking for Kyle. Some girls were gawking at Andy and giving me glares. Some were giving me looks. Well, that’s because I didn’t think twice before running off a bus in nothing but a Slipknot tanktop and blue underwear, barefooted. Andy is in the same state I’m in, only his boxers. We ran up to Beau from Blessthefall.
“BEAU!” I yelled. He came towards us and looked at the handcuffs and then looked at us. “Beau it’s not what it-”
“Oh my gosh! You two had sex?! With handcuffs?” he yelled.
“Beau it’s-”
“I always knew you had a wild side.” I began to blush madly.
“Beau! We didn’t have-”
“OH KELLIN GET OVER HERE!!!” he yelled. Oh God, today is not my day.
“Hey man what up?” he pointed to us and Kellin’s mouth dropped. “OH MY GOD YOU GUYS DID THE DIRTY?!?! I SWEAR TO GOD ANDY I WILL KILL YOU!!!!”
“Oh my gosh! Guys we didn’t-”
“Kellin it’s not what it looks like!” Andy yelled.
“Oh really?” Kellin rolled his eyes. “You’re both in your underwear, barefooted, handcuffed together.”
“Man, I swear to God it’s-”
“OLIVER!!! SEAN!!!” Beau yells to them. They come running over and they look at us. Kellin and Andy are still yelling at each other and I’m frozen to my spot.
“Why Ellie? Why would you run off the bus like that? why did you fuck Andy?! What about Vic?!?!?”
“Oli calm down! Me and Vic broke up-”
“SO! NO NEED TO DO THAT!!!” he waves his hand in front of us.
“Kellin we didn’t have-” Andy began.
“You better take good care of her! you probably took advantage of her.” Kellin yelled. I looked at Sean who just gave me a thumbs up.
“HEY JARED!!!!” oh God, please stop. “Hey Lights, baby guess what Ellie did!” I snap my head to Beau who’s now on the phone with his wife. Jared and the guys ran over and looked at us.
“You-you-oh-lawd!!!”
“How dare you!” Kellin pokes Andy in the chest while Andy tried to calm him down. I breathed in and out, like I’m preparing to have a heart attack. My heart was beating irregular. It hurts, it hurts like it’s getting ready to explode.
Please, I know why you’re acting like this, just wait to next month to explode.
The pain became too much, my anger built up inside of me, mixing with the pain. I squeezed my eyes shut and let it all out.
“EVERYONE SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!” I screamed.
Everyone looked at me with wide eyes. Fans nearby looked at me along with some merch people and sound tech guys.
“We did not sleep together! I mean we did,” Beau opened his mouth to speak. “Shut the fuck up Bokan.” He snapped it shut. “We did not have sex. Kyle thought it would be good to be handcuffed to the opposite band member to get to know each other. Me and Andy over slept and we need to find Kyle to get un-cuffed. We can’t put a shirt on him because of this-” I lifted up our cuffed hands. “And we didn’t think of putting pants or shoes on! So do any of you dumb brains know where Kyle is?!?!” I yelled. Everyone faces turned red, but not as red as Beau’s and Kellin’s. they pointed to the Tilly’s stage. I yanked Andy with me, the cuffs digging deeper into my wrist, as Sean smacked my butt. I flipped him off and I could’ve swore I saw Andy glaring at him. We ran to Kyle who was flirting with a girl when he saw us.
“Hey guys-whoa.” Both of our faces were red with embarrassment and anger.
“They keys.” Andy snap. That’s when my manager came.
“Ellie! What are you doing?” she looked at me and Andy. I open my mouth to speak but she cuts me off. “I don’t want to know. You have a set in ten minutes, get dress.”
“WE can’t!” I blurt. “He can’t put a shirt on!
“And I don’t have the keys.” Kyle pipes in.

Notes

Oh Kyle, that was the wrong thing to say young one.