My Understandings

It’s been three hours. They’ve been calling my name nonstop. But the image is burned into my brain. Austin standing in the middle of my show, sucking faces with a brunette. That brunette who happened to be our merch girl. I cried so much, I’m even paler than usual. I’m always gonna care about Austin. But I’d hope he would tell me about dating again. Especially with our merch girl.
“I knew I would find you up here.” Alan sat next to me and stared down at the people running around frantically.
“I take that you found out about Austin’s little, uh, toy.” He said nervously.
“Yea.” Is all I say.
“He wanted to tell you, honestly.” This brings out more tears. Where have they been? I’ve been wanting to cry them out for hours now.
“Oh yea?” I snap. “How is kissing her in front of my show a way of telling me? I know I’m with Vic, but I can’t shake these feelings away from Austin.” I slump back down to my knees. Alan wraps his arms around me and rocks me. "I think I still love him." I whisper.
“I know. I’m sorry. Believe me when I say I tried to stop him.” He’s hiding something.
“How long?” Alan begins to fidget with his fingers which are tangled in my hair. “How long Alan?” I spat.
“Since the beginning of Warped.” He mumbles. A whole month and a half. Even during the time where we almost kissed. I stand up and begin to pace. Pacing turns to sobbing, sobbing turns to mental break down, mental break lands me on the ground. Me being on the ground attracts the attention of some people. I didn’t get hurt or anything. I landed on somebody.
Who turned out to be Austin.
“Ellie, wait.” I didn’t want to hear it. I just gave him the fakest smile ever. And instead of running away in tears, I walked away with a smile. “Ellie!” he called. I continued to walk. I saw Miley running towards me. She hugged me so tight.
“Oh my gosh. I heard what happened. Are you okay?” I nodded. She smiled and jumped. She was walking towards the stage. “So, last night I had the strangest dream.” I give her a questioning look.
“What was it about?” I put my hands in my pockets.
“Sex. I heard moans and groans. I could’ve sworn I heard it coming from your bunk.” She said. I looked at her.
“No. I was up all night.” I state. That part was true. I was up all night.
“Doing what?” she looks at me.
“Playing Temple Run. Max and Ryan were snoring next door.” she shrugs.
“I must be sex crazed.” Ha. If only. “Oh. So I wanted to know when we get to California, if you would come with me to get a tan and my hair done.” She asks.
“Why?”
“I’m tired of being pale. And I’m tired of this blue.” She takes a lock of her hair and tugs it. “I want black and pink or black and purple. Still undecided.” I smiled. Maybe some girl time is what I needed. To relieve the stress of being the rookie band and the fact that I’m a cheating whore. “Oh! Vic wants to see you.” This made my chest flutter. In a good/bad way. She pointed straight ahead. Before I could turn around to thank her, she was walking away. I take a breath before making my way to Vic. He was laughing at something Tony or Jaime, still not sure yet, said. I walk up to him and Tony/Jaime left.
“Hey.” I put my hand up, but quickly put it down. He smiles and hugs me tightly.
“So I was thinking, in California, you and I hit the beach.” He said while we walked to a merch tent.
“Uh, I can’t actually. I promised Miley I would go with her to do some shopping. I’m even thinking of getting another tattoo.” He squirmed a little.
“You have tattoos? As in the one with the needles?” he wrapped an arm around my neck and laced our fingers.
“Yea, see,” I showed him the music notes, the birds, and the ones on my foot. “I might get a dream catcher on my leg or thigh.” Because I was gonna need it. We arrived at a tent and began going through things to buy. I hold up an OM& shirt. He shakes his head and hands me a PTV shirt. I shake my head and grab a beanie. I slip in on and turn around. He laughs but pays for the two shirts and the beanie. In return I buy him a new snapback and a couple of PTV picks. We walk to another tent and that is when he decides to tell a joke.
“Come on, answer it!” I shake my head and buy a sweatshirt. “Fine. If you don’t answer it, I’m gonna have to kiss you.” He says taking a step forward.
“You have to catch me.” I run away from him, but I hear him on my trail. I’m squealing like a little girl as I run in between fans and band members. He grabs my wrists and pulls me into him and he crashes his lips on mine. I smile into the kiss as he pulls me tighter. He makes me forget about Austin, Ryan, and all the worries. All that matters is his lips on mine. He tugs on my bottom lip as he pulls away. Someone clears their throat behind us and we turn to see Austin and Alan looking at us. Alan is secretly giving me a thumb up behind his back. We smile and Vic wraps his arm around me and we walk away.
~Austin~
Did she really have to do that in front of my face? I mean it’s not like she saw me. Even if she did, she probably would’ve did it anyway. The merch girl, Hannah, was a distraction. We weren’t really dating. We weren’t even hooking up. It was just kissing. But after Ellie saw me, I told Hannah it wouldn’t work out. She didn’t seem fazed. I walk outside our bus and stand next to Alan who is smoking. And honestly, that tie-dye shirt isn’t working on my ginger princess. He blew a roll of smoke out before he notices my presence.
“What’s wrong now?” he knows me too well. “Let me re-phrase that. What is Ellie doing now?” even better. I tug at my hair. This is eating me alive.
“It’s just, I don’t know. She’s driving me crazy.”He tosses his cigarette on the ground and smashes it. “It’s like whenever I see a girl, I find myself comparing her to Ellie. I was doing fine til she came on this damn tour!” I lean my head back and slam it against the bus. I do this process three more times until I’m sure I have an earsplitting headache, literally. Sometimes I think about ruining their relationship. To see them fail, but if she even does come to me, I will be left of the burden of knowing she’s not really supposed to be with me.
“Well, getting over her-” I glared at him. “You didn’t let me finish.” He said while searching for the right words. “Getting over her isn’t going to happen anytime soon. You guys are already friends, what more do you want Austin? Any more than that would require a relationship. Which you don’t have.”
“I know that Alan, but-”
“Cut the crap Austin.” He snaps at me. “You had your chance and you blew it. She’s fucking happy with Vic. If you really fucking love her you’ll leave her the fuck alone with Vic and be a fucking. Man!” he yells in my face. His face is so red, I swear it matches the redness in my face. I just look at him. “Man, fuck it Austin. Whatever you choice is, you do it. I’m just done. Just-whatever.” He slams the door shut. I have never seen Alan so angry before. He is beyond pissed. I walk over to the last place I thought I need advice from. He treats her like his own sister. I knock on the door and I hear a thump and groan. But the door soon opens and his face is twisted in surprise.
“What do you want Carlile?”
~Ellie~
For Paradise, six bands including us are doing the show. That is Black Veil Brides, 3Oh!3, Blood On the Dance Floor, All Time Low, and Blessthefall. It would be fun to all go the fair and have fun. While waiting to arrive, I’ve been face timing Andy.
“So. How’s my little rookie band doing?” he asks.
“Band? Excellent. Lead singer? Somewhat okay. Ellie Schmitt? Absolute shit.”
“So as a band member and lead singer, you’re okay. But as a person it’s terrible?”
“Yup. Pretty much.” He shifts in his position on the couch. CC and Ashley are in the kitchen. You can barely make out Jinxx’s ass crack.
“Why?” he asks. For him to now be able to legally drink, I wish he was doing more of that than asking and being so sensitive.
“I did something I shouldn’t have done. And now I feel guilty.”
“You cheated?” he asked. I gave him a confused look. “I’m really good at reading faces. That’s why Juliet can never hide anything from me.” I bite my lip, looking away from Andy. But I nod. Out of the corner of my eye I see him shake his head.
“Normally, I would say tell him. But this time, don’t.” he gives me a stern look. “It would, no; it will bring this whole tour apart. Just think about it. You made Vic upset, he performs badly. You’re caught in a scandal between Pierce the Veil and your screw toy. You get the title Band Whore back.” That is so true. Geez, he’s younger than me, but yet smarter. “Bands will start to take sides, and honestly, I would be on your side. But that’s not the point. Bands take sides and soon they are all fighting. Do you really want that?” I shook my head. We were only a month into the tour.
“No.” he smiled.
“Good. Now, promise me no more hook ups.” He put his pinkie to the screen.
“Promise.” I put my pinkie on the screen.
“If you break this promise, I’ll tell your brother.” I nodded. Something I didn’t need happening.
“Hey, I gotta go. But see you when we arrive?” he questioned. I nod. I ended the face time call and stared at my bank screen. I opened the curtain and looked at the moving road beneath me. my phone began to ring, snapping me out of my trance. It was a face time call under the contact of Mexican BF
“Hey Vic.”
“Hey, sucks we both aren’t going to the State Fair.” He gives me a puppy dog look. I giggle a little.
“No. now I can focus. Hard to when a very cute Mexican is flaunting their stuff.” I wiggle my eyebrows at him.
~Vic~
I watch Ellie smile and laugh at my stupid jokes. Her eyes are sparkling so beautifully.
“Vic, Viiiiiiiic, Victor, Victorrrrrr.” I snap out of my trance and smile at her.
“Hey beautiful.”
“So. When’s the next time we’ll get together at a venue?” I check the schedule that was texted to everyone.
“The 22nd. At the Pomona fairplex.” She sighs.
“That’s a whole six days.” She pouts her lips. Ryan comes and plops himself next to her.
“Hi.” He says.
“Bye.” She gets up and walks away. I raised my eyebrows. She seemed pretty scared when he sat next to her. Aren't their bandmates? She is now in her bunk. She sets the phone down so my only view is the ceiling. Jaime comes and sits next to me, handing me a beer.
“Thanks.” I down some of it while I hear rummaging. The occasional curse words until she pulled out a notebook. She opens it and writes some words down and closes it.
“Sorry bout that. had to write it down before I lost it.” I smile at her.
“No harm in that.”
“So, Vic, about writing a song together, uhm. Gosh, okay. We need a new single and I have a couple of things in mind. But I need unclean and clean vocal. And I was wondering if you could consider doing the, uhm, clean vocals if I go with the collaberation?” she blushed heavily. Was she seriously asking me to be in a song with her? “Ugh. I knew this was a bad idea.” She murmurs.
“NO!” I yell. This earns me a few glances from Mike and Tony and one from Ellie. “I mean, duh! I would love to! But who’s doing the unclean vocals?”
“I don’t know yet. I was thinking it’s either between Austin, Oliver or Blessthefall's unclean vocalist, gosh, I can never remember his name.... I don’t really know.” Austin? That twat? Ha! As if! I didn’t let it show, but I really didn’t want her collaborating with Austin. I know about their past, and even though she won't admit it, I know a part of her still loves him.
“HEY! We got vodka!” I can hear Miley yell in the background. Ellie’s face lit up with excitement. She turned to me and I laughed.
“Go ahead.” She smiled and ended the call. I went and downed the more beers. Tonight was gonna be a long night.

Notes

Okay, so alot of you want Vic and Ellie to be done. He's an important character in this story, so bear with me. I'm thinking about combing two chapters together and make it one long chapter and an extra chapter after that. So, a long one and a double update. That way, Vic and Ellie will be done quicker. But uh, heads up, after Vic and Ellie break up, Ellie gets in another brief relationship (Don't shoot me!) But, it's only brief. So, uh, that's the plan so far. I have this whole story written out, it's up to YOU how frequent I update.