This is not what it is
they said it gets easier but they lied.
"oh my god!! what are you doing here?" I asked, how did Jake find me?
"I wanted to make sure you were ok, can we grab a coffee or something and talk?"
"I'm sorry but I'm meeting someone, can we do it tomorrow?"
"I'm sorry, but I did love you."
"what are you talk- he grabbed me and put a cloth over my mouth and nose, I tried to escape or scream but the darkness took me before I could. when I woke up I was tied up in a room I didn't recognize. the walls are dirty with holes in them from termites and age, the door was off its hinges and the floor has definitely seen some better days.
"well look who's up.' Jake said from the doorway.
"what the hell Jake! why the fuck am I here!" I yelled at him.
"why the fuck do you think bitch! how the fuck could u tell me such bullshit about your mother hurting and abusing you when your the one that's threatening her and then go fuck Kellin Quinn you fucking whore! I loved you and you go pull this shit on me." he said, tears running down his face.
"she abuses me, you have seen the bruises and burn marks, do you need to see the scars from the surgery's I needed to live after what she did to me?!? and I never left you for Kellin." I said crying too, how could he think I would lie about that and leave him for Kellin?
"if you didn't leave me then why aren't you with me?? you could have stayed with me I could have runaway with you, I fucking loved you! but that's ok, I got you bitch, I moved on too." and as soon as he said that my mom walked in and made out with him in front of me. I was speechless to say anything. I started to have a panic attack.
"shut the fuck up with your heavy ass breathing u fat ass." Jake said. he walked over too me and it only made my panic attack worse, he slapped me so hard I blacked out until they through water on me.
"were not done yet, we cant have you try and split us up with lies about abuse to the cops." she said with venom in her mouth.
"Jake my love, I've got this, wait in the car." she said to Jake. he nodded and left the room.
"I want you dead. and besides, we cant have you telling the cops now can we?"
"I was out of your life! I was gone and you never had too see me ever again, and if I haven't told the cops already why would I?"
"shut up. and don't worry, you'll bleed out before someone finds you, your in the middle of a forest. it will probably take weeks, months, or years before anyone finds you." she walked up too me and stated kicking and punching me before pulling out a razor and slowly dragging the razor across my face. my cheeks, nose, chin, mouth, and forehead. then she moved down to my thighs. she pulled my pants down to my ankles and carved the word worthless into my left thigh. she took her time and wrote it legibly so I could read it as I died. she wrote bitch on my right thigh the same way. she spit on me and left .
'this is it' I thought. ' I'm going to die.' I tried to hold on as long as I could but I fell asleep.
"I wanted to make sure you were ok, can we grab a coffee or something and talk?"
"I'm sorry but I'm meeting someone, can we do it tomorrow?"
"I'm sorry, but I did love you."
"what are you talk- he grabbed me and put a cloth over my mouth and nose, I tried to escape or scream but the darkness took me before I could. when I woke up I was tied up in a room I didn't recognize. the walls are dirty with holes in them from termites and age, the door was off its hinges and the floor has definitely seen some better days.
"well look who's up.' Jake said from the doorway.
"what the hell Jake! why the fuck am I here!" I yelled at him.
"why the fuck do you think bitch! how the fuck could u tell me such bullshit about your mother hurting and abusing you when your the one that's threatening her and then go fuck Kellin Quinn you fucking whore! I loved you and you go pull this shit on me." he said, tears running down his face.
"she abuses me, you have seen the bruises and burn marks, do you need to see the scars from the surgery's I needed to live after what she did to me?!? and I never left you for Kellin." I said crying too, how could he think I would lie about that and leave him for Kellin?
"if you didn't leave me then why aren't you with me?? you could have stayed with me I could have runaway with you, I fucking loved you! but that's ok, I got you bitch, I moved on too." and as soon as he said that my mom walked in and made out with him in front of me. I was speechless to say anything. I started to have a panic attack.
"shut the fuck up with your heavy ass breathing u fat ass." Jake said. he walked over too me and it only made my panic attack worse, he slapped me so hard I blacked out until they through water on me.
"were not done yet, we cant have you try and split us up with lies about abuse to the cops." she said with venom in her mouth.
"Jake my love, I've got this, wait in the car." she said to Jake. he nodded and left the room.
"I want you dead. and besides, we cant have you telling the cops now can we?"
"I was out of your life! I was gone and you never had too see me ever again, and if I haven't told the cops already why would I?"
"shut up. and don't worry, you'll bleed out before someone finds you, your in the middle of a forest. it will probably take weeks, months, or years before anyone finds you." she walked up too me and stated kicking and punching me before pulling out a razor and slowly dragging the razor across my face. my cheeks, nose, chin, mouth, and forehead. then she moved down to my thighs. she pulled my pants down to my ankles and carved the word worthless into my left thigh. she took her time and wrote it legibly so I could read it as I died. she wrote bitch on my right thigh the same way. she spit on me and left .
'this is it' I thought. ' I'm going to die.' I tried to hold on as long as I could but I fell asleep.
12/2/13