Be not afraid, to love me
Cap Guns
OM&M all decided to go home and have decent showers. As Alan was heading for the door I was filled with hope. I was in the clear. I wouldn't hurt him and he wouldn't hurt me. He just had to turn around and my face fell. He thought I was sad he was leaving. He wrapped his arms around my waist and I couldn't help but feel that he was only doing this to be nice. I smiled slightly and he smirked stepping back with my phone in his hand. He put his number in the contacts and texted himself so he'd have mine. He thought he was so smooth sliding my phone into my back pocket and grabbing my ass with his other hand. I rolled my eyes pushing him back towards the door before gathering the others to go to IHOP and the corner store for my cigarettes. I didn't smoke often. But the bullshit with my ex and then fighting again and emotions I needed something to calm my nerves. Most everyone fit in Annie's van but I chose to ride with Balz on his bike. Baby still needed a little bit of work or else I'd be by myself. Somewhere at a red light I shifted and Balz looked back at me.
"You wanna do crazy shit don't you?" He said throwing his glance back to the light.
The light turned green. "Do your worst."
as he sped up I started to stand slightly on the back. It was more of a crouch because I had to steady myself using his shoulders. I heard the cheering from Annie and Ryan and one or two of the boys. We past a car and I couldn't tell who was inside but I know they were watching. Balz accelerated a little more and the front wheel came of the ground a little. I smiled as he hit it again and kept the front wheel slightly off of the ground. Another stoplight approached and we stopped doing stupid shit. Annie shouted from the next lane.
"You crazy bitch I should've hired you for my birthday!" She teased. I held on today. I'm usually move more when I ride with Balz. I just held on though. We made it to the IHOP and Ryan was happy as all hell. I was still just barely holding on. I wasn't participating in the conversation. I was just present. I guess I do that a lot in life. I just barely hold on to things. I barely manage to stay alive.
"You wanna do crazy shit don't you?" He said throwing his glance back to the light.
The light turned green. "Do your worst."
as he sped up I started to stand slightly on the back. It was more of a crouch because I had to steady myself using his shoulders. I heard the cheering from Annie and Ryan and one or two of the boys. We past a car and I couldn't tell who was inside but I know they were watching. Balz accelerated a little more and the front wheel came of the ground a little. I smiled as he hit it again and kept the front wheel slightly off of the ground. Another stoplight approached and we stopped doing stupid shit. Annie shouted from the next lane.
"You crazy bitch I should've hired you for my birthday!" She teased. I held on today. I'm usually move more when I ride with Balz. I just held on though. We made it to the IHOP and Ryan was happy as all hell. I was still just barely holding on. I wasn't participating in the conversation. I was just present. I guess I do that a lot in life. I just barely hold on to things. I barely manage to stay alive.
10/20/13