Who Will I Be For My Daughter?
Watching Your Empire Fall
“Well then, you’re having it.” Austin was looking at me and I was looking at Mia.
“It’s not that simple. I won’t be able to perform for at least a year and I’ll have to take it easy for six months. That means no lifting Mia and I’m not allowed sex for at least a month.” Austin raked his hand through his hair and I heard his breath hitch. I turned and saw the pain in his expression.
“Would rather not be able to perform for a year and be alive with your family or would you prefer to continue the way you are and be dead within the year?” I asked him so quietly that Mia wasn’t able to hear this conversation. She didn’t need the added stress.
“I want to live every single day with you.”
“Then do the operation. Please. For us.” I reached out and wrapped my hand around his and he bent over and kissed me so gently it bought tears to my eyes. I felt wet against my cheeks and knew it wasn’t mine. I kissed his tears away before sitting back.
“I don’t want to die, Taylor.” He said almost inaudibly as he looked between me and Mia. I cupped his face in both of my hands and bought his face to mine so my lips were mere millimetres from him.
“You listen to me, Austin, listen good. You’re not going to die. Without the operation you’ll die but you have it and you’re not going to die. I promise you. I’ll be waiting for you when you get out of surgery and so will our daughter.”
“Okay. Promise you’ll be there through everything. I need you with me. Every single step of the way.” Austin whispered against my lips and nodded at him.
“Every tiny step. I’ll be here for you.”
“We should tell Mia.”
“Mia, sweetie.” I called and she scrambled from the pool with a huge smile. She jumped up onto Austin’s lap and he smiled down at her soaking wet face. Her blonde hair stuck to her forehead and her gap toothed smile was huge.
“Daddy’s going to need an operation on his heart.” Austin said and he slid his shirt off over his head and traced his finger down the scar down the middle of his chest. “Right here.”
“Mummy?” Mia frowned at me as she traced her Dad’s scar.
“He’s right, Mia. Daddy isn’t going to be very well for a while but he will always come back to you. Do you understand us?”
“What happen?”
“Well, the nice doctors and going to look at Daddy’s heart and make it all better but he won’t be able to play for a long while. So we’re going to have to keep him entertained. You think we can do that?” I told her and she got a determined look on her face before she nodded her head.
“We can watch princess and play tea.”
“Sounds lovely, Mia.” Austin whispered and bent down to kiss his daughter’s head. Later that night Austin rang his doctor and arranged the surgery for tomorrow. I was worried it was so close but the doctor said it was urgent that they get the surgery done. We then phoned all of our friends and once Mia was in bed they all were in our house.
“You’re going to be fine.” Alan whispered to Austin and wrapped his arms around him. I watched as the two men clung to each other like their lives depended on it. It bought tears to my eyes and Izzy hugged me.
“How are you doing?” she asked.
“I’m okay. I’ve got to be strong for him.” Austin had started to cry slightly and everyone was around his giving his words of comfort and silent support. They didn’t stay for a long time just enough to be able to wish Austin luck and comfort.
We made love slowly that night not knowing how long it would actually be until we could do it again. We fell asleep in a messy heap and the morning came way too fast in my opinion. We had to be at the hospital by seven.
“You’ll stay the entire time?” Austin asked as he sat on the hospital bed just outside the operating theatre, his hand squeezing mine so tight it was starting to go numb.
“They’ll have to drag me out of here.” I kissed him on his lips gently and wiped a single tear that had fallen down his cheek.
“I love you so much.”
“With everything in my heart. Now they need you in surgery. I’ll be waiting for you to come out alive.”
“I’ll see you soon.” He murmured as they wheeled him into the room. I looked over at Mia who was sleeping on the sofa in the waiting room and I allowed the tears to roll down my cheeks. He was going to be fine. He had to be. I couldn’t survive without him.
“It’s not that simple. I won’t be able to perform for at least a year and I’ll have to take it easy for six months. That means no lifting Mia and I’m not allowed sex for at least a month.” Austin raked his hand through his hair and I heard his breath hitch. I turned and saw the pain in his expression.
“Would rather not be able to perform for a year and be alive with your family or would you prefer to continue the way you are and be dead within the year?” I asked him so quietly that Mia wasn’t able to hear this conversation. She didn’t need the added stress.
“I want to live every single day with you.”
“Then do the operation. Please. For us.” I reached out and wrapped my hand around his and he bent over and kissed me so gently it bought tears to my eyes. I felt wet against my cheeks and knew it wasn’t mine. I kissed his tears away before sitting back.
“I don’t want to die, Taylor.” He said almost inaudibly as he looked between me and Mia. I cupped his face in both of my hands and bought his face to mine so my lips were mere millimetres from him.
“You listen to me, Austin, listen good. You’re not going to die. Without the operation you’ll die but you have it and you’re not going to die. I promise you. I’ll be waiting for you when you get out of surgery and so will our daughter.”
“Okay. Promise you’ll be there through everything. I need you with me. Every single step of the way.” Austin whispered against my lips and nodded at him.
“Every tiny step. I’ll be here for you.”
“We should tell Mia.”
“Mia, sweetie.” I called and she scrambled from the pool with a huge smile. She jumped up onto Austin’s lap and he smiled down at her soaking wet face. Her blonde hair stuck to her forehead and her gap toothed smile was huge.
“Daddy’s going to need an operation on his heart.” Austin said and he slid his shirt off over his head and traced his finger down the scar down the middle of his chest. “Right here.”
“Mummy?” Mia frowned at me as she traced her Dad’s scar.
“He’s right, Mia. Daddy isn’t going to be very well for a while but he will always come back to you. Do you understand us?”
“What happen?”
“Well, the nice doctors and going to look at Daddy’s heart and make it all better but he won’t be able to play for a long while. So we’re going to have to keep him entertained. You think we can do that?” I told her and she got a determined look on her face before she nodded her head.
“We can watch princess and play tea.”
“Sounds lovely, Mia.” Austin whispered and bent down to kiss his daughter’s head. Later that night Austin rang his doctor and arranged the surgery for tomorrow. I was worried it was so close but the doctor said it was urgent that they get the surgery done. We then phoned all of our friends and once Mia was in bed they all were in our house.
“You’re going to be fine.” Alan whispered to Austin and wrapped his arms around him. I watched as the two men clung to each other like their lives depended on it. It bought tears to my eyes and Izzy hugged me.
“How are you doing?” she asked.
“I’m okay. I’ve got to be strong for him.” Austin had started to cry slightly and everyone was around his giving his words of comfort and silent support. They didn’t stay for a long time just enough to be able to wish Austin luck and comfort.
We made love slowly that night not knowing how long it would actually be until we could do it again. We fell asleep in a messy heap and the morning came way too fast in my opinion. We had to be at the hospital by seven.
“You’ll stay the entire time?” Austin asked as he sat on the hospital bed just outside the operating theatre, his hand squeezing mine so tight it was starting to go numb.
“They’ll have to drag me out of here.” I kissed him on his lips gently and wiped a single tear that had fallen down his cheek.
“I love you so much.”
“With everything in my heart. Now they need you in surgery. I’ll be waiting for you to come out alive.”
“I’ll see you soon.” He murmured as they wheeled him into the room. I looked over at Mia who was sleeping on the sofa in the waiting room and I allowed the tears to roll down my cheeks. He was going to be fine. He had to be. I couldn’t survive without him.
Notes
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10/6/14