Don't say I'm better off dead.
And Then, Came Then.
Austin’s P.O.V
I shifted uncomfortably against the hard mattress of the hospital bed, the wires connected to my body were all to familiar, but it didn’t mean I was used to being confined down to a machine. I looked up in time to catch Phil and Tino make their way through the wooden door, smiles planted on their faces; I knew what I was in for. Tino made a motion to open his mouth and I quickly responded;
“I’m fine, feeling great actually. No I don’t need anything, yes I know that you all know what’s been going on, ya da ya da. Now take a seat and lets have a normal conversation, I don’t want to really talk about everything right now.”
I smiled sadly at the last part, I really didn’t feel comfortable with discussing recent events, honestly I was prepared to move far away with Oli; and to never look back…but that meant leaving my friends, my shop, my life behind…and I wasn’t quite ready to make that move. I thought about calling my dad, but decided against it; I don’t know what I would even say to him…I really needed to talk to Oli about what he thinks we should do. Tino cleared his throat pulling me out of his trance. He and Phil sat next to me, eyeing me cautiously; I smiled at them, thoughts of my tattooed…boyfriend (?) dancing in my head.
“So what’s going on with you and Oli?” Phil pulled the words out of my head and brought them to the surface, I felt my face heat up and I took a sudden interest In my hands, I heard them laughing.
“Yeah! Come on Austin, tell us! We want to know!” For an unbelievably straight man, Tino could be more flamboyant than anyone. It was quite hysterical.
“Uh fine! So uh well when he came in here, we talked and then we kind of kissed…” I then remembered why it all happened to begin with, “PHIL I don’t know whether to hug you or kill you! Oli forgot to delete those messages and that’s how I found out to start with!”
Tino shot him a confused look, and the dark haired man turned an awful shade of red, I couldn't suppress the urge chuckle. “Well I wont kill you, actually thanks. You know how hard it would have been to tell him how I felt? You know how nervous I get because every time I want to say something I think of what SHE said…”
The awkward silence got even heavier, I wanted to say something but I felt like a lump was in my throat; man this wasn't a good situation.
“So Alan and Aaron went to go get food! Cause I’m sure you and Oli are starving. So they should be here soon,” Tino finished talking, and I gave him a look that said ‘thank you for breaking the tension.’ He smiled and made a move to get up, checking his phone.
“Actually they are here now, I will have them come back.“ I smiled appreciatively but felt a knot in my stomach, I tried to push it away but I couldn't Was it because I didn't want to see Alan after what happened with Oli? I mean the ginger was still my friend, and there were no hard feelings but I was nervous and on edge for some reason.
Phil and Tino awkwardly waved and slipped out the door they had come from and sighed and laid back against the mattress. I mumbled a ‘Fuck Everything’ and waited impatiently for my friends to arrive.
Alan’s P.O.V
As Aaron and I entered the immaculately clean hospital, I spotted Tino and Phil walking down the hall to greet us and could see Oli awkwardly stand up. I wanted nothing more than to shove him back into his seat and slit his throat; but I had to refrain, everything good comes with time.
Aaron handed our friends the box of tacos and the drinks for them and the tattooed freak, they eagerly took them, and told us to take the rest to Austin. I watched them pat Oli on the back and smile at him, curiosity was plaguing my mind, but my Austin was waiting for me. I left the trio and followed Aaron to the room that housed my love, as we entered I felt my breath hitch. I had seen him like this before, to many times may I add, but it didn’t hurt any less. He smiled, and motioned for us to come in, Aaron took the seat farthest from him and reached over to hand him his food, which he gladly took and thanked him. I still stood by the door, heart pounding in my chest like a battery ram breaking down a door, my emotions were a whirlwind. I felt bad about being the cause for him being here, but it was only because I loved him…right? I shifted my weight as Aaron gazed at me questioningly,
“Hey everything is fine Alan! No need to worry, so sit down.” Austin patted the chair from his spot; I sighed heavily and made my way to his side. He reached a hand out and I quickly placed mine in his, his touch never failed to make my mind explode, I wanted nothing more than to be with him forever. If only he felt the same…I softly shook my head, no, he will feel the same when I’m done dealing with Oli.
We chatted about random things, and then ate our food in a comfortable silence, Austin retracted his hand from mine as he quietly ate his tacos, I found myself quietly chewing my food. I hated eating, hated it so much; I wanted nothing more than to run to the bathroom and throw up every last bite that I consumed. Maybe then Austin would love me.
“So when do you get out?” I asked quietly, Austin shrugged.
“Soon I hope, with everything going on, and the work that I didn’t get to do when I was away from the shop…I cant afford to miss much time.”
As if on cue, a knock echoed from the door, making me jump, Aaron laughed at me and I shot him a death glare. A scrubs clad doctor and nurse entered and made their way over to Austin.
“Mr. Carlile, since you have been stable for several hours, and there seems to be no harm done we will be able to release you now. We will give you a new prescription of your medicine, and we want you back in a few weeks to check up. Understood?”
Austin smiled and nodded, as the nurse handed him a bag of clothes, which I recognized his pants, but there was a hospital t-shirt in replace of the one that I’m sure was cut off. The doctors motioned for us to take our leave,
“You can wait for him in the waiting room, he will be out shortly.” We nodded and waved before walking down the hall back to where we entered. Aaron approached Tino and Phil, and the British bastard and explained everything to them. Tino and Phil smiled and Oli sighed in relief. He better be relieved for as long as he can, because ill be sure to rip that from him too.
I couldn’t wait to get back to the plan. It was fool proof; I just had to be careful, and precise.
When I’m done with him, he will wish he was dead.
Yes, things were going to be fun.
Oli’s P.O.V
When Austin emerged from the long hall, he looked tired, worn out even but he carried that beautiful smile of his in a way which made me smile too. I knew Alan was glaring at me, I was starting to become uncomfortable under his gaze, but at the same time none of that mattered. I watched the dark haired man sweep a hand through his hair, which had long since fallen flat, as he signed himself out and was handed a small bag filled with medicine. He thanked the lady quickly before waltzing over to us, a grin broke out on his face.
“Well I’m free! So who wants to be a saint and take Oli and I home?”
Tino volunteered, and for that much I was grateful. We all stood up, and said quick goodbyes, I told Phil thank you for the billionth time, and he made sure to let me know it was no problem. The clock in the lobby read 10:01 AM; it had really been a long night, I couldn’t wait to go…home. Yeah, that was where I wanted to be. I knew Austin was exhausted and so was I, he wrapped an arm around my shoulders as we exited the building, we waved at everyone, and yet again I caught Alan scowling at me. I didn’t know what I had done wrong, but it made me self conscious to think that he hated me so much, I pursed my lips and lowered my eyes, carefully walking to the car behind Tino, Austin still attached to my side.
“When we get home, I want to crawl in bed and sleep!” He exclaimed, hanging his head low to show how tired he was, I couldn’t help but chuckle.
“Well is it okay if when Matt gets in later he could stop by? He said he would be staying at a hotel, but I really would like to see him.” I watched as Austin raised his head and nodded, a small smile playing on his lips.
“Of course, you don’t even have to ask, so Phil is getting him at the airport, then bringing him over?” he shuffled his feet a bit, kicking lose gravel from the blacktop. I nodded, and he squeezed my shoulders tighter.
“Here we are!”
Tino exclaimed as we found our way to a black Mercedes, how these guys could have such nice cars was beyond me. Austin offered to let me sit up front but I declined and climbed into the back, and he sat in the passenger seat. Laying his arm on the center console and reaching his hand out for mine, I quickly intertwined our fingers after I had buckled my seat belt. Tino started the car,
“Everyone got a seat belt on?” he asked in mock concern, we all laughed but nodded. The drive to ‘our’ house was nice, and quiet. I was having a hard time staying awake and Austin and Tino were babbling a mile a minute in order to stay awake. When we arrived at the house, we broke our grip on each others hands, as we opened the doors and got out, thanking Tino as I did so.
“See you later Tino! Shops obviously closed today, which sucks but oh well, if we aren’t all tired, Matt included, we should hit up that pub later!” Austin exclaimed and Tino nodded in agreement before beginning to back out of the drive way. Austin looked for his keys but to no avail, I could see him smile when I pulled the spare from my pocket. As I moved to open the door, I felt hand encircle me and strong arms pull me into him, I smiled as he dipped his head down and planted a small kiss on my cheek. I slid the key into the lock and quickly opened the door, revealing the house in the same state we left it, He let go of me as we stepped in, locking the 4 new locks on our door. I ushered for him to take a seat in the living room while I ran through the house and made sure everything was okay, I took his medicine and put it by his bedside table, before going back down the stairs to see him sitting on the couch. I motioned for him to follow me and he did, we climbed the stairs and I made my way to his room, turning a lamp on and drawing the black shades,
“So your medicine is here, and the house is fine, so try and get some sleep. Okay?” he nodded slowly, and I began to walk out when I felt his hand reach out for me,
“Stay?” he asked it In such a hushed tone that it made my heart soar. How could I say no?
-&-
I woke up to the beeping of the alarm clock, it was 6:00 pm, I couldn't believe I had slept so long, I shut the annoying device up and rolled over slightly, Austin was awake but barely, his loose muscle shirt was wrinkled and his hair was a mess, but it was possibly the most gorgeous thing I have ever seen. I soon found myself being pulled closer to him and his arms wrapped around me, one arm drawing circles in my back and the other holding me close, I smiled up at him and brought my lips to his.
It was a quick kiss, but it was no different from our first, he moved his lips in sync with mine, and in that moment I felt like I had died and gone to heaven. He pulled away from me all to quickly, and quietly rolled out of bed, offering me a hand, I gladly took it and he pulled me into his arms once again, kissing my forehead.
“Oli?” Austin whispered in my ear, causing a shiver to find its way down my spine, "go take a shower, you stink! I will clean the house so you don't have too."
I punched him in the arm as best as I could, earning a grunt from the larger man as he gently pushed me off of him, I pouted.
"Don't give me that look! I-I...Ols!" Austin mock pouted at me and pointed at the door, "seriously, I got the house you go make yourself look even more beautiful, if that's even possible." Okay, I couldn't help but grin and make my way to the door, I went to open it but paused, my hand resting on the knob; I turned one last time to face Austin.
"So...how do I introduce you to Matt?" I could feel the blush on my face creep back up, his face shot a bright red as well, and he took a sudden interest in the floor.
"Well I kind of like the sound of, 'Matt, meet my ...boyfriend, Austin'" his eyes were still on the ground and I was glad for that, I knew my face was hot; and I could only imagine how horrid it looks. Part of me was ecstatic that Austin actually did want to be with me, but I could hear that little voice in the back of my head jeering.
'hesonlygoingtouseyou.'
and
'hejustfeelsbadforyou.youforgetyouranuglypieceofshit.'
Despite my better judgement, I smiled at him, his eyes were locked on mine, I must have been lost in thought for sometime, Austin looked a mix of worried and disappointed, I quickly took my hand off the door knob, which I had been holding in a death grip, I closed the gap between us and swiftly pressed my lips to his. My arms snaked around his neck and I had to slightly stand on my toes, he smiled into the kiss and wrapped his arms securely around my waist, I couldn't help but notice that he hadn't shaved recently,but the little bit of stubble was actually quite cute on him. After some time we broke apart, and I laid my head on my...boyfriends chest, boyfriend, heh funny how fast feelings can develop. Guess love really has no boundaries, Months ago the thought of being with a man would make me cringe, but now...I wouldn't have it any other way, despite everything, I wouldn't want to be with anyone but him.
He let go of me and pointed to the door, I nodded before making my way to my door and opening it, thankfully nothing was out of place or had been tampered with, I grabbed a black pair of skinny jeans, a black Death shirt and a red and black plaid shirt, before making my way to the bathroom and stripping my clothes away from my body. I looked in the mirror, pinching and tugging at any imperfection that littered my body, and there were more than a few. The small clock read 6:20, I groaned before opening the shower curtain and turning on the water, stepping inside. I smiled as the hot water washed away the grime of the last few days, I made quick work of washing my hair and body. I exited and took a towel to my hair, before wrapping it around my now shivering body, I took the hair dryer and brush and dried my hair as fast as possible. After several more minutes, i emerged from the bathroom feeling much better than when I had went in. It was 6:45, and the excitement of Matt arriving soon was starting to get to me, I retreated down the stairs and noted how clean everything looked in comparison to usual, Austin was vacuuming the rug in the living room, dancing with it to Imaginary music, I smiled at him as he caught me staring at him. He shut the vacuum off and made his way to me, planting a kiss on my forehead and muttering, "you look so perfect." I blushed for the umpteenth time since I had woken up, before replying with a "you too love."
He giggled, before thanking me, I realized I hadn't even really looked at him, I mean I have obviously seen him, but I never took the time to appreciate his beauty. The way his tattoos popped in the natural light, the way his body wasn't proportioned properly, but was still absolutely perfect, the slight curve of his lips, and the light behind his beautiful eyes. His black skinny jeans hugged his long legs perfectly, and the slipknot muscle tee exposed his muscular arms, he truly was perfection.
"You checking me out again, Sykes?" his voice snapped me back to reality and I grinned, before pecking him on the cheek and helping him straighten up. He and I cleaned the rest of the house within 15 minutes. it was now 7:10 and I was anxiously pacing back and forth for what seemed like forever as Austin laughed at me from his spot on the couch, as soon as I saw the dim glow of headlights I darted outside, Austin stumbled out a few seconds after me. we stood on the porch as Phil's black Acura pulled in the drive, and he stepped out, smiling brightly; but my eyes were trained on the passenger door as it opened. Stepping from behind the door was Matt, Matt Fucking Nicholls, he looked incredibly different, but im sure I did too. He was much taller and leaner than I remembered, ears adorned with large gauges and his brown hair was laying in a long fringe, his arms were littered with tattoos much like mine. I smiled brightly at him, before running and flinging myself into his arms. He pulled me closer, and spun me around over and over again, I could feel tears pouring down my face, and I could feel a few drip onto my shoulder, I didn't think he of all people would cry. I reluctantly let go of him and smiled as he took my face into his hands,
"Oli, holy shit! You look so amazing, and different ! Oh I missed you!" I smiled at him, his eyes were brimmed with tears and he had a huge grin on his face. He let go of my face before slinging an arm over my shoulder and facing Phil and Austin who stood on the porch, smiling at us.
"So care to introduce me to him?" Matt whispered quietly.
I inwardly gulped, Here goes nothing.
I shifted uncomfortably against the hard mattress of the hospital bed, the wires connected to my body were all to familiar, but it didn’t mean I was used to being confined down to a machine. I looked up in time to catch Phil and Tino make their way through the wooden door, smiles planted on their faces; I knew what I was in for. Tino made a motion to open his mouth and I quickly responded;
“I’m fine, feeling great actually. No I don’t need anything, yes I know that you all know what’s been going on, ya da ya da. Now take a seat and lets have a normal conversation, I don’t want to really talk about everything right now.”
I smiled sadly at the last part, I really didn’t feel comfortable with discussing recent events, honestly I was prepared to move far away with Oli; and to never look back…but that meant leaving my friends, my shop, my life behind…and I wasn’t quite ready to make that move. I thought about calling my dad, but decided against it; I don’t know what I would even say to him…I really needed to talk to Oli about what he thinks we should do. Tino cleared his throat pulling me out of his trance. He and Phil sat next to me, eyeing me cautiously; I smiled at them, thoughts of my tattooed…boyfriend (?) dancing in my head.
“So what’s going on with you and Oli?” Phil pulled the words out of my head and brought them to the surface, I felt my face heat up and I took a sudden interest In my hands, I heard them laughing.
“Yeah! Come on Austin, tell us! We want to know!” For an unbelievably straight man, Tino could be more flamboyant than anyone. It was quite hysterical.
“Uh fine! So uh well when he came in here, we talked and then we kind of kissed…” I then remembered why it all happened to begin with, “PHIL I don’t know whether to hug you or kill you! Oli forgot to delete those messages and that’s how I found out to start with!”
Tino shot him a confused look, and the dark haired man turned an awful shade of red, I couldn't suppress the urge chuckle. “Well I wont kill you, actually thanks. You know how hard it would have been to tell him how I felt? You know how nervous I get because every time I want to say something I think of what SHE said…”
The awkward silence got even heavier, I wanted to say something but I felt like a lump was in my throat; man this wasn't a good situation.
“So Alan and Aaron went to go get food! Cause I’m sure you and Oli are starving. So they should be here soon,” Tino finished talking, and I gave him a look that said ‘thank you for breaking the tension.’ He smiled and made a move to get up, checking his phone.
“Actually they are here now, I will have them come back.“ I smiled appreciatively but felt a knot in my stomach, I tried to push it away but I couldn't Was it because I didn't want to see Alan after what happened with Oli? I mean the ginger was still my friend, and there were no hard feelings but I was nervous and on edge for some reason.
Phil and Tino awkwardly waved and slipped out the door they had come from and sighed and laid back against the mattress. I mumbled a ‘Fuck Everything’ and waited impatiently for my friends to arrive.
Alan’s P.O.V
As Aaron and I entered the immaculately clean hospital, I spotted Tino and Phil walking down the hall to greet us and could see Oli awkwardly stand up. I wanted nothing more than to shove him back into his seat and slit his throat; but I had to refrain, everything good comes with time.
Aaron handed our friends the box of tacos and the drinks for them and the tattooed freak, they eagerly took them, and told us to take the rest to Austin. I watched them pat Oli on the back and smile at him, curiosity was plaguing my mind, but my Austin was waiting for me. I left the trio and followed Aaron to the room that housed my love, as we entered I felt my breath hitch. I had seen him like this before, to many times may I add, but it didn’t hurt any less. He smiled, and motioned for us to come in, Aaron took the seat farthest from him and reached over to hand him his food, which he gladly took and thanked him. I still stood by the door, heart pounding in my chest like a battery ram breaking down a door, my emotions were a whirlwind. I felt bad about being the cause for him being here, but it was only because I loved him…right? I shifted my weight as Aaron gazed at me questioningly,
“Hey everything is fine Alan! No need to worry, so sit down.” Austin patted the chair from his spot; I sighed heavily and made my way to his side. He reached a hand out and I quickly placed mine in his, his touch never failed to make my mind explode, I wanted nothing more than to be with him forever. If only he felt the same…I softly shook my head, no, he will feel the same when I’m done dealing with Oli.
We chatted about random things, and then ate our food in a comfortable silence, Austin retracted his hand from mine as he quietly ate his tacos, I found myself quietly chewing my food. I hated eating, hated it so much; I wanted nothing more than to run to the bathroom and throw up every last bite that I consumed. Maybe then Austin would love me.
“So when do you get out?” I asked quietly, Austin shrugged.
“Soon I hope, with everything going on, and the work that I didn’t get to do when I was away from the shop…I cant afford to miss much time.”
As if on cue, a knock echoed from the door, making me jump, Aaron laughed at me and I shot him a death glare. A scrubs clad doctor and nurse entered and made their way over to Austin.
“Mr. Carlile, since you have been stable for several hours, and there seems to be no harm done we will be able to release you now. We will give you a new prescription of your medicine, and we want you back in a few weeks to check up. Understood?”
Austin smiled and nodded, as the nurse handed him a bag of clothes, which I recognized his pants, but there was a hospital t-shirt in replace of the one that I’m sure was cut off. The doctors motioned for us to take our leave,
“You can wait for him in the waiting room, he will be out shortly.” We nodded and waved before walking down the hall back to where we entered. Aaron approached Tino and Phil, and the British bastard and explained everything to them. Tino and Phil smiled and Oli sighed in relief. He better be relieved for as long as he can, because ill be sure to rip that from him too.
I couldn’t wait to get back to the plan. It was fool proof; I just had to be careful, and precise.
When I’m done with him, he will wish he was dead.
Yes, things were going to be fun.
Oli’s P.O.V
When Austin emerged from the long hall, he looked tired, worn out even but he carried that beautiful smile of his in a way which made me smile too. I knew Alan was glaring at me, I was starting to become uncomfortable under his gaze, but at the same time none of that mattered. I watched the dark haired man sweep a hand through his hair, which had long since fallen flat, as he signed himself out and was handed a small bag filled with medicine. He thanked the lady quickly before waltzing over to us, a grin broke out on his face.
“Well I’m free! So who wants to be a saint and take Oli and I home?”
Tino volunteered, and for that much I was grateful. We all stood up, and said quick goodbyes, I told Phil thank you for the billionth time, and he made sure to let me know it was no problem. The clock in the lobby read 10:01 AM; it had really been a long night, I couldn’t wait to go…home. Yeah, that was where I wanted to be. I knew Austin was exhausted and so was I, he wrapped an arm around my shoulders as we exited the building, we waved at everyone, and yet again I caught Alan scowling at me. I didn’t know what I had done wrong, but it made me self conscious to think that he hated me so much, I pursed my lips and lowered my eyes, carefully walking to the car behind Tino, Austin still attached to my side.
“When we get home, I want to crawl in bed and sleep!” He exclaimed, hanging his head low to show how tired he was, I couldn’t help but chuckle.
“Well is it okay if when Matt gets in later he could stop by? He said he would be staying at a hotel, but I really would like to see him.” I watched as Austin raised his head and nodded, a small smile playing on his lips.
“Of course, you don’t even have to ask, so Phil is getting him at the airport, then bringing him over?” he shuffled his feet a bit, kicking lose gravel from the blacktop. I nodded, and he squeezed my shoulders tighter.
“Here we are!”
Tino exclaimed as we found our way to a black Mercedes, how these guys could have such nice cars was beyond me. Austin offered to let me sit up front but I declined and climbed into the back, and he sat in the passenger seat. Laying his arm on the center console and reaching his hand out for mine, I quickly intertwined our fingers after I had buckled my seat belt. Tino started the car,
“Everyone got a seat belt on?” he asked in mock concern, we all laughed but nodded. The drive to ‘our’ house was nice, and quiet. I was having a hard time staying awake and Austin and Tino were babbling a mile a minute in order to stay awake. When we arrived at the house, we broke our grip on each others hands, as we opened the doors and got out, thanking Tino as I did so.
“See you later Tino! Shops obviously closed today, which sucks but oh well, if we aren’t all tired, Matt included, we should hit up that pub later!” Austin exclaimed and Tino nodded in agreement before beginning to back out of the drive way. Austin looked for his keys but to no avail, I could see him smile when I pulled the spare from my pocket. As I moved to open the door, I felt hand encircle me and strong arms pull me into him, I smiled as he dipped his head down and planted a small kiss on my cheek. I slid the key into the lock and quickly opened the door, revealing the house in the same state we left it, He let go of me as we stepped in, locking the 4 new locks on our door. I ushered for him to take a seat in the living room while I ran through the house and made sure everything was okay, I took his medicine and put it by his bedside table, before going back down the stairs to see him sitting on the couch. I motioned for him to follow me and he did, we climbed the stairs and I made my way to his room, turning a lamp on and drawing the black shades,
“So your medicine is here, and the house is fine, so try and get some sleep. Okay?” he nodded slowly, and I began to walk out when I felt his hand reach out for me,
“Stay?” he asked it In such a hushed tone that it made my heart soar. How could I say no?
-&-
I woke up to the beeping of the alarm clock, it was 6:00 pm, I couldn't believe I had slept so long, I shut the annoying device up and rolled over slightly, Austin was awake but barely, his loose muscle shirt was wrinkled and his hair was a mess, but it was possibly the most gorgeous thing I have ever seen. I soon found myself being pulled closer to him and his arms wrapped around me, one arm drawing circles in my back and the other holding me close, I smiled up at him and brought my lips to his.
It was a quick kiss, but it was no different from our first, he moved his lips in sync with mine, and in that moment I felt like I had died and gone to heaven. He pulled away from me all to quickly, and quietly rolled out of bed, offering me a hand, I gladly took it and he pulled me into his arms once again, kissing my forehead.
“Oli?” Austin whispered in my ear, causing a shiver to find its way down my spine, "go take a shower, you stink! I will clean the house so you don't have too."
I punched him in the arm as best as I could, earning a grunt from the larger man as he gently pushed me off of him, I pouted.
"Don't give me that look! I-I...Ols!" Austin mock pouted at me and pointed at the door, "seriously, I got the house you go make yourself look even more beautiful, if that's even possible." Okay, I couldn't help but grin and make my way to the door, I went to open it but paused, my hand resting on the knob; I turned one last time to face Austin.
"So...how do I introduce you to Matt?" I could feel the blush on my face creep back up, his face shot a bright red as well, and he took a sudden interest in the floor.
"Well I kind of like the sound of, 'Matt, meet my ...boyfriend, Austin'" his eyes were still on the ground and I was glad for that, I knew my face was hot; and I could only imagine how horrid it looks. Part of me was ecstatic that Austin actually did want to be with me, but I could hear that little voice in the back of my head jeering.
'hesonlygoingtouseyou.'
and
'hejustfeelsbadforyou.youforgetyouranuglypieceofshit.'
Despite my better judgement, I smiled at him, his eyes were locked on mine, I must have been lost in thought for sometime, Austin looked a mix of worried and disappointed, I quickly took my hand off the door knob, which I had been holding in a death grip, I closed the gap between us and swiftly pressed my lips to his. My arms snaked around his neck and I had to slightly stand on my toes, he smiled into the kiss and wrapped his arms securely around my waist, I couldn't help but notice that he hadn't shaved recently,but the little bit of stubble was actually quite cute on him. After some time we broke apart, and I laid my head on my...boyfriends chest, boyfriend, heh funny how fast feelings can develop. Guess love really has no boundaries, Months ago the thought of being with a man would make me cringe, but now...I wouldn't have it any other way, despite everything, I wouldn't want to be with anyone but him.
He let go of me and pointed to the door, I nodded before making my way to my door and opening it, thankfully nothing was out of place or had been tampered with, I grabbed a black pair of skinny jeans, a black Death shirt and a red and black plaid shirt, before making my way to the bathroom and stripping my clothes away from my body. I looked in the mirror, pinching and tugging at any imperfection that littered my body, and there were more than a few. The small clock read 6:20, I groaned before opening the shower curtain and turning on the water, stepping inside. I smiled as the hot water washed away the grime of the last few days, I made quick work of washing my hair and body. I exited and took a towel to my hair, before wrapping it around my now shivering body, I took the hair dryer and brush and dried my hair as fast as possible. After several more minutes, i emerged from the bathroom feeling much better than when I had went in. It was 6:45, and the excitement of Matt arriving soon was starting to get to me, I retreated down the stairs and noted how clean everything looked in comparison to usual, Austin was vacuuming the rug in the living room, dancing with it to Imaginary music, I smiled at him as he caught me staring at him. He shut the vacuum off and made his way to me, planting a kiss on my forehead and muttering, "you look so perfect." I blushed for the umpteenth time since I had woken up, before replying with a "you too love."
He giggled, before thanking me, I realized I hadn't even really looked at him, I mean I have obviously seen him, but I never took the time to appreciate his beauty. The way his tattoos popped in the natural light, the way his body wasn't proportioned properly, but was still absolutely perfect, the slight curve of his lips, and the light behind his beautiful eyes. His black skinny jeans hugged his long legs perfectly, and the slipknot muscle tee exposed his muscular arms, he truly was perfection.
"You checking me out again, Sykes?" his voice snapped me back to reality and I grinned, before pecking him on the cheek and helping him straighten up. He and I cleaned the rest of the house within 15 minutes. it was now 7:10 and I was anxiously pacing back and forth for what seemed like forever as Austin laughed at me from his spot on the couch, as soon as I saw the dim glow of headlights I darted outside, Austin stumbled out a few seconds after me. we stood on the porch as Phil's black Acura pulled in the drive, and he stepped out, smiling brightly; but my eyes were trained on the passenger door as it opened. Stepping from behind the door was Matt, Matt Fucking Nicholls, he looked incredibly different, but im sure I did too. He was much taller and leaner than I remembered, ears adorned with large gauges and his brown hair was laying in a long fringe, his arms were littered with tattoos much like mine. I smiled brightly at him, before running and flinging myself into his arms. He pulled me closer, and spun me around over and over again, I could feel tears pouring down my face, and I could feel a few drip onto my shoulder, I didn't think he of all people would cry. I reluctantly let go of him and smiled as he took my face into his hands,
"Oli, holy shit! You look so amazing, and different ! Oh I missed you!" I smiled at him, his eyes were brimmed with tears and he had a huge grin on his face. He let go of my face before slinging an arm over my shoulder and facing Phil and Austin who stood on the porch, smiling at us.
"So care to introduce me to him?" Matt whispered quietly.
I inwardly gulped, Here goes nothing.
Notes
Oh man, im sorry for the delay with this chapter!Anyways here it is C: sorry its not extremely exciting, but this was much needed filler!
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10/18/13