If You Were A Movie, This Would Be Your Soundtrack

Try.
A word we use everyday. Try to do this, try to do that, try harder, you can do it if you just try.
Well, what if you just don't want to try anymore because you are afraid of the outcome?
I was terrified when I woke up and Kellin's arms were around me. All in all, I actually felt.....guilty? He's sill in the process of divorce, he has a child, he just got kicked out of his bus, and we had sex, twice, without any confrontation of our feelings. If there is any.
Of course I feel something to Kellin, but does he? What if I'm only a rebound? I've been a rebound before and it's not fun.
Kellin began to stir next to me as something vibrated under my butt.
"Uh nuff, Kat, can you get my phone?" He turned over so he was piratically on top of me.
"Er," I pulled it from my butt and wiped it on his shirt.
"Answer it." He mumbled. Groaning, I pressed the green button.
"Hello?" I asked while shifting away from Kelli.
"Kellin please think-who is this?" The feminine voice asked.
"Uh, I'm Kat."
"And why do you have Kellin's phone Kat?"
"He's too lazy to move from my bunk, so he told me to answer it." I say.
"Look honey! Stay away-" The call dropped. We still had about 12 hours until we reach our next spot and everyone was still knocked out.
"Kat?" He rolled over so he was on his back.
"Hmm?" He turned to face me, using a thumb to cascade my cheek.
"What are your feeling towards me?" I thought about this. Duh, I had feelings. But I don't think it's best to tell him. He may just reject them anyway.
"There is none." I say bluntly. He props himself up on his elbow.
"Really? Cause I think you're lying." He says. I glare at him.
"Well, I'm not." He climbs over me until his is hovered above me.
"Tell my you have no feelings towards me." He demanded. I looked at him. What does he think I meant the first time?
"I don't." He leaned down and gently pressed his lips to mine. I swear I felt the blush creeping up.
"Tell me you have no feelings towards me." He repeats. I grew angrier.
"I fucking don't Kellin." He kisses me again, more aggressively than before. He pulled me closer, but I tried to push away.
"I know you do." He mumbled.
"No I don't." I mumbled back into the kiss. He pulled me on top of him as his hands worked on taking off my shirt.
"Can't you tell how much I want to be with you." He kisses down from my neck to my bare stomach and back to my neck. He takes the piece of skin between his teeth and gently bites the piece. I bite my tongue to keep from waking up my siblings and Gabe. He starts to suck at the skin and my hands fidget.
"Still don't want me?" He asks. My hands fumble before taking off his shirt and staring at his bare chest.
"No." I whisper. I shake my head and push Kellin away. I take my shirt and hop down from my bunk. I really like Kellin, but I am not having my heart broken on Warped. I'm here to perform and have fun. Not worry about a silly crush. Yes, that's what this is all about. A silly crush. I begin to walk to the kitchen when Kellin jumps down and grabs my wrist. I turn around and face him.
"Go on a date with me." He says.
"No!" I hiss.
"Just one date. And if you really don't have any feelings towards me, I'll leave it at that." His eyes searched mine.
"Fine Bostwick." He flinched. "But only one date." I snap. He smiles and takes me in a hug. I already knew I had feelings for him. But in the end, if I act out on these feelings, he's going to leave me like everyone else.
Tonight, I would have to try extra hard to make him believe I don't like him.
But I like him so much.
But I'm only doing it for his sake as well as mine.

Notes

Gosh Kat, just let him in already! He likes you!