The Depths
Six.
Austin and I spent the night in my old room at my parents house, after everyone left. We kissed and cuddled, but fell asleep quickly, since we were exhausted.
The next morning, Austin is kissing my neck to wake me up. It felt good to sleep in a bed again, and I groan and role over. He kisses my ear and gently nibbles on it, I know what he wants, and I laugh.
"What time is it?" I ask, quietly.
"Like 6 a.m." He says, as I turn over and look at his face. He looked so awake, and especially handsome. His hair was a little messy and it made me want to run my hands through it. I do, and bring his lips to mine. His breath was minty, I knew he brushed his teeth.
"Cheater." I fold my arms, knowing that I didn't get to brush mine yet.
"You always taste good." He smiles, and climbs on top of me. He kisses my neck, my chest, down my stomach, he looks at me as he kisses all the way down to my thighs. I know I have to keep quiet so I bite my lip, and tilt my head back. He's kissing back up to me.
**
I bite his lip when his lips get back to mine. He pulls down his boxers, just enough and slides my underwear to the side, I feel like a teenager again, and he kisses me before pushing himself inside of me. I let out a quiet sigh, and his hand covers my mouth, turning me on even more.
As he thrusts in and out of me, I can't help but arch my back and grasp the pillows above my head. He buries his head into my neck, and kisses me as he quickens the pace. I know I'm trying to keep quiet and I figure he is too, he gently bites my neck some more, making me moan quietly in his ear. I push him over and now I'm on top of him, riding him slowly, he grins.
"You are so beautiful." He says quietly. I lean into him and kiss his lips, and I know what's coming next. I kiss his lips some more, as we both reach a climax. I feel warm all over, and I'm shaking. I lay over him and kiss his scarred chest before resting on top of him. His eyes are closed, I know he's catching his breath.
**
"Woah." I say, still a little out of breath.
"I know." He says putting his hands above his head. He takes one and runs it through my hair. He smiles, and kisses my forehead. I lay next to him and kiss his neck.
"I guess we should get ready for our day." I say, but I don't want this to end.
We both get up and head for the shower. After we get dressed in our clothes for the day, and head downstairs to get make some breakfast. My family was coming to the show today, and I couldn't wait to spend it with Emilie again.
Austin wraps his hands around my waist as I cook some eggs for us. And I hear my parents moving around upstairs, I knew Emilie would be running down the stairs at any moment.
"Austin!!!" Like clockwork I hear her little voice, and I'm a little jealous it's not for me. She hugs his waist since that's all she can reach. "Mommy!" She hugs me next and I kiss her good morning.
"Em, are you excited for today?" I ask, and she nods rapidly. "Do you want some eggs?"
"No, I just want some oatmeal and some yogurt." She says.
"Alright, why don't you go get dressed and brush your teeth? I'll have some ready when you get back okay?"
"Okay!" she runs back up the stairs.
"She's so sweet." Austin beams. "I love her." I laugh, that's the first time I heard him say he loved anyone. I'm glad it's Emilie.
The morning we spent getting ready to leave and we had Alan text us our set times. 4:10 for Austin, 2:30 for me. Austin got texted his other things he had to do too. His signing, his interviews all of that fun stuff.
I gave Emilie her big headphones she had to wear so she didn't harm her ears, I bought pink ones and she loved them. She clung to Austin's hand like glue. She wouldn't leave his side until he had to run off to do interviews, I hoped he be done in time to see my band's show.
When it was time for my band to go on, my parents and my daughter watched from the sidelines, our crowd was huge, and I knew it was because it was our home state. I seen Austin join my family, and that gave me more energy.
The show was one of the best for us. After I headed with my daughter to Austin's stage, and she was excited to see them. She stood by my side waiting for the band to go on stage. When she seen Austin, she ran to him. He smiled and kneeled down to her height. I watched as they had a conversation, and then Austin was called away by Tino. He pointed Emilie to me, and she smiled running up to me.
"What was that about?" I ask her.
"I asked if I could sing with him." She smiles. "I want to be a rock star." I laugh, and take the hair away from her eyes, we hear the intro to their set start, and I see Emilie jump up and down excited.
Emilie has fun the whole show, and towards the end Austin surprises me and Emilie.
"As you all know, I'm friends with plenty of people." He announces, the whole crowd yells, "Well I'd like you all to meet a very special friend of mine." He puts his hand out to Emile, and she looks up at me. I nod her off and she runs on stage. The crowd screams at the top of their lungs. "Now I want you all to treat Emilie like she's me, help her sing the lyrics to our last song!" He hands her the MIC as the band starts playing Second and Sebring and Emilie has the time of her life.
At the end of the song she runs off stage into my arms, and hugs me tightly.
"Mom, that was the best time of my life!" She says. "but where's Austin?" She asks.
"Well he's backstage now." I say.
"But he jumped into the audience and never came back!" she says, and I take her hand.
We head to Austin's bus, my family followed behind. They marvel at how big it is but, Emilie runs to Austin who sits with a new shirt and a towel over his head. I knew he took a quick shower, because he smelled like his body wash.
"You did amazing." He says to her, out of breath still. He high fives her and she hugs him without Austin.
"Thank you Austin that was the best time I've had I think." She says and he wraps his long arms around her tiny body.
"Well, maybe you can take my part in the band." He laughs, and she pulls away.
"I wouldn't want that." She folds her arms. "You're too good."
"Well, I'm going to go get some of those delicious cheese fries I seen." My dad says, "Want to join?" He asks us all.
"I'll go!" Emilie runs to him. She knows that her grandpa will buy her whatever she wants, I giggle at her.
"Yeah, I'll walk around with you." My mom says.
"Austin and I are going to stay here for a little." I say, "Call or text me if you need anything." I smile, and they wave us off. I feel Austin pull me closer, and kiss my neck. I turn my head to kiss his lips.
Austin takes his hands and runs it down my face and to my chin lightly running his thumb over my lips. He makes my heart beat faster than it was, and kisses me on my lips again. I run my hands through his damp hair.
"You are amazing." He says between kisses. "You and your daughter are so special to me, I want you to know that."
"Thank you." I breath, "you're not to shabby yourself." I smile and bite my lip, trying to be mean to him was so hard. He grins, and sits up letting me rest my head on his chest. I listen to his heartbeat for a while, what a beautiful sound that was. Austin lightly strokes his hand through my hair. I felt really relaxed.
"Austin, I have to talk to you." I say quietly.
"You can talk to me about anything." He smiles a comforting smile, and sits me on his lap.
"Well, I know tonight Emilie isn't going to take leaving easy, especially leaving you. I can tell she has this little attachment to you, and I know how she can be about things like this... I just don't want you to tell her anything you aren't sure about."
"What do you mean?"
"It's still early in our relationship, I just don't want you to tell her you'll see her soon, or you love her or something like that, if you don't really mean it. I don't care what you say to me, but she is young and I don't want her getting heartbroken again, like when her father left her." I say, looking into his brown eyes.
"I won't say anything I don't mean to her." He nods, "I understand." He pulls me in for a kiss. "Let's go find your family and hangout with them while we have time. He says, taking my hand.
The rest of the night is spent with my family, before we have to get on the road again for another show. When I had to say goodbye, I felt my heart start to break little by little. My mom and dad hugged me first, then Emilie. I didn't want to let go, and as she wrapped her little arms around my neck she told me she loved me. I tried to hold it in, but a few tears slipped through my eyes.
Emilie walked over to Austin and he got down to her level like he had been doing. She wrapped her arms around his neck and held on tightly. He wrapped his arms around her small body again and held her tight.
"I'm gonna miss you Austin."
"I will see you again really soon." He smiles, "I will take you for a day out okay?" She nods and quickly hugs him again, and then comes back to me.
"I love you mommy." She says again. "Come home soon okay?" I nod and kiss her cheek. She runs to my moms side. Austin wraps his arm around my shoulder as we watch them get into their car and leave. We wave at them.
"I thought you said you wouldn't say anything you weren't sure about?" I ask a little aggravated at Austin.
"I meant what I said." He steps in front of me. "I really meant what I said." I feel like the air had left my lungs. I just stand in shock, until he leans down and kisses me. I feel on top of the world, and I don't want this feeling to fade.
The next morning, Austin is kissing my neck to wake me up. It felt good to sleep in a bed again, and I groan and role over. He kisses my ear and gently nibbles on it, I know what he wants, and I laugh.
"What time is it?" I ask, quietly.
"Like 6 a.m." He says, as I turn over and look at his face. He looked so awake, and especially handsome. His hair was a little messy and it made me want to run my hands through it. I do, and bring his lips to mine. His breath was minty, I knew he brushed his teeth.
"Cheater." I fold my arms, knowing that I didn't get to brush mine yet.
"You always taste good." He smiles, and climbs on top of me. He kisses my neck, my chest, down my stomach, he looks at me as he kisses all the way down to my thighs. I know I have to keep quiet so I bite my lip, and tilt my head back. He's kissing back up to me.
**
I bite his lip when his lips get back to mine. He pulls down his boxers, just enough and slides my underwear to the side, I feel like a teenager again, and he kisses me before pushing himself inside of me. I let out a quiet sigh, and his hand covers my mouth, turning me on even more.
As he thrusts in and out of me, I can't help but arch my back and grasp the pillows above my head. He buries his head into my neck, and kisses me as he quickens the pace. I know I'm trying to keep quiet and I figure he is too, he gently bites my neck some more, making me moan quietly in his ear. I push him over and now I'm on top of him, riding him slowly, he grins.
"You are so beautiful." He says quietly. I lean into him and kiss his lips, and I know what's coming next. I kiss his lips some more, as we both reach a climax. I feel warm all over, and I'm shaking. I lay over him and kiss his scarred chest before resting on top of him. His eyes are closed, I know he's catching his breath.
**
"Woah." I say, still a little out of breath.
"I know." He says putting his hands above his head. He takes one and runs it through my hair. He smiles, and kisses my forehead. I lay next to him and kiss his neck.
"I guess we should get ready for our day." I say, but I don't want this to end.
We both get up and head for the shower. After we get dressed in our clothes for the day, and head downstairs to get make some breakfast. My family was coming to the show today, and I couldn't wait to spend it with Emilie again.
Austin wraps his hands around my waist as I cook some eggs for us. And I hear my parents moving around upstairs, I knew Emilie would be running down the stairs at any moment.
"Austin!!!" Like clockwork I hear her little voice, and I'm a little jealous it's not for me. She hugs his waist since that's all she can reach. "Mommy!" She hugs me next and I kiss her good morning.
"Em, are you excited for today?" I ask, and she nods rapidly. "Do you want some eggs?"
"No, I just want some oatmeal and some yogurt." She says.
"Alright, why don't you go get dressed and brush your teeth? I'll have some ready when you get back okay?"
"Okay!" she runs back up the stairs.
"She's so sweet." Austin beams. "I love her." I laugh, that's the first time I heard him say he loved anyone. I'm glad it's Emilie.
The morning we spent getting ready to leave and we had Alan text us our set times. 4:10 for Austin, 2:30 for me. Austin got texted his other things he had to do too. His signing, his interviews all of that fun stuff.
I gave Emilie her big headphones she had to wear so she didn't harm her ears, I bought pink ones and she loved them. She clung to Austin's hand like glue. She wouldn't leave his side until he had to run off to do interviews, I hoped he be done in time to see my band's show.
When it was time for my band to go on, my parents and my daughter watched from the sidelines, our crowd was huge, and I knew it was because it was our home state. I seen Austin join my family, and that gave me more energy.
The show was one of the best for us. After I headed with my daughter to Austin's stage, and she was excited to see them. She stood by my side waiting for the band to go on stage. When she seen Austin, she ran to him. He smiled and kneeled down to her height. I watched as they had a conversation, and then Austin was called away by Tino. He pointed Emilie to me, and she smiled running up to me.
"What was that about?" I ask her.
"I asked if I could sing with him." She smiles. "I want to be a rock star." I laugh, and take the hair away from her eyes, we hear the intro to their set start, and I see Emilie jump up and down excited.
Emilie has fun the whole show, and towards the end Austin surprises me and Emilie.
"As you all know, I'm friends with plenty of people." He announces, the whole crowd yells, "Well I'd like you all to meet a very special friend of mine." He puts his hand out to Emile, and she looks up at me. I nod her off and she runs on stage. The crowd screams at the top of their lungs. "Now I want you all to treat Emilie like she's me, help her sing the lyrics to our last song!" He hands her the MIC as the band starts playing Second and Sebring and Emilie has the time of her life.
At the end of the song she runs off stage into my arms, and hugs me tightly.
"Mom, that was the best time of my life!" She says. "but where's Austin?" She asks.
"Well he's backstage now." I say.
"But he jumped into the audience and never came back!" she says, and I take her hand.
We head to Austin's bus, my family followed behind. They marvel at how big it is but, Emilie runs to Austin who sits with a new shirt and a towel over his head. I knew he took a quick shower, because he smelled like his body wash.
"You did amazing." He says to her, out of breath still. He high fives her and she hugs him without Austin.
"Thank you Austin that was the best time I've had I think." She says and he wraps his long arms around her tiny body.
"Well, maybe you can take my part in the band." He laughs, and she pulls away.
"I wouldn't want that." She folds her arms. "You're too good."
"Well, I'm going to go get some of those delicious cheese fries I seen." My dad says, "Want to join?" He asks us all.
"I'll go!" Emilie runs to him. She knows that her grandpa will buy her whatever she wants, I giggle at her.
"Yeah, I'll walk around with you." My mom says.
"Austin and I are going to stay here for a little." I say, "Call or text me if you need anything." I smile, and they wave us off. I feel Austin pull me closer, and kiss my neck. I turn my head to kiss his lips.
Austin takes his hands and runs it down my face and to my chin lightly running his thumb over my lips. He makes my heart beat faster than it was, and kisses me on my lips again. I run my hands through his damp hair.
"You are amazing." He says between kisses. "You and your daughter are so special to me, I want you to know that."
"Thank you." I breath, "you're not to shabby yourself." I smile and bite my lip, trying to be mean to him was so hard. He grins, and sits up letting me rest my head on his chest. I listen to his heartbeat for a while, what a beautiful sound that was. Austin lightly strokes his hand through my hair. I felt really relaxed.
"Austin, I have to talk to you." I say quietly.
"You can talk to me about anything." He smiles a comforting smile, and sits me on his lap.
"Well, I know tonight Emilie isn't going to take leaving easy, especially leaving you. I can tell she has this little attachment to you, and I know how she can be about things like this... I just don't want you to tell her anything you aren't sure about."
"What do you mean?"
"It's still early in our relationship, I just don't want you to tell her you'll see her soon, or you love her or something like that, if you don't really mean it. I don't care what you say to me, but she is young and I don't want her getting heartbroken again, like when her father left her." I say, looking into his brown eyes.
"I won't say anything I don't mean to her." He nods, "I understand." He pulls me in for a kiss. "Let's go find your family and hangout with them while we have time. He says, taking my hand.
The rest of the night is spent with my family, before we have to get on the road again for another show. When I had to say goodbye, I felt my heart start to break little by little. My mom and dad hugged me first, then Emilie. I didn't want to let go, and as she wrapped her little arms around my neck she told me she loved me. I tried to hold it in, but a few tears slipped through my eyes.
Emilie walked over to Austin and he got down to her level like he had been doing. She wrapped her arms around his neck and held on tightly. He wrapped his arms around her small body again and held her tight.
"I'm gonna miss you Austin."
"I will see you again really soon." He smiles, "I will take you for a day out okay?" She nods and quickly hugs him again, and then comes back to me.
"I love you mommy." She says again. "Come home soon okay?" I nod and kiss her cheek. She runs to my moms side. Austin wraps his arm around my shoulder as we watch them get into their car and leave. We wave at them.
"I thought you said you wouldn't say anything you weren't sure about?" I ask a little aggravated at Austin.
"I meant what I said." He steps in front of me. "I really meant what I said." I feel like the air had left my lungs. I just stand in shock, until he leans down and kisses me. I feel on top of the world, and I don't want this feeling to fade.
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