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This One's For Us

Mistakes

Lily.

This night we sit talking for hours. I feel like we're back in high school. Before all the sex and the relationship stuff. I leaned against his arm all night. All the tour stories I missed. All the birthday celebrations and parties. I told him about my time too, not as exciting as his, but I told him everything. By the time our eyes were getting heavy the sun was rising, and it got cold. I shivered as we stood up walking towards civilization. People were out taking their morning jog, and walking their dogs. Austin hands me his jacket that I don't even try to deny. It smells just like him, I take it in as I wrap it around myself. I stop to put my heels back on, but Austin stops me.
"Take mine." He says taking off his fresh new vans. I giggle, and take them, to spare my feet from hurting. We walk towards the club where we stand for a few minutes.
"Where are you heading?" Austin asks.
"Home." i shrug. "You?"
"Dad's house." He says. "I didn't want to live in that house alone, so I'm waiting until something else comes along."
"Do you want to stay with us?" I say without thinking. "I mean Adam and I have an extra room, and we don't use it, it's just... there."
"Really?" His face lights up.
"Yes." I say. I know I should probably ask Adam... Adam! I was supposed to call him last night, I quickly remember. My cell phone was probably left in Felicity's car.
"What's wrong?" Austin asks me.
"I was supposed to call Adam last night but I must have left my phone in her car." I sigh, but start to giggle. I really did feel like a teenager again. "Do you want to walk? It's not to far." I say. He nods and I lead the way towards home.
When we get to my house, I reach in my bra for my single key to get me in the door. I hear Austin laughing at me, but that's what I always did. We enter my little condo, it's quiet like it usually is. The door opens up to our living room, our small kitchen on the left. I see Austin looking at the pictures on the wall of Adam and I. He turns around and looks at me.
"He's good looking." He says.
"Yeah." I say, but I change the subject quickly. "You can crash here? I figure it's five now.. we can sleep until like one, and go get some of your stuff? I have to meet up with my wedding planner by 3 to finalize flower arrangements, is that okay?" He nods and plops down on my couch.
"Comfy."
"Let me grab you a blanket and a pillow." I grin, and head to a closet in our hallway. I pull out a blanket and a pillow, but when I get back his eyes are shut and he's already lightly sleeping. He always fell asleep so fast. I place the blanket over him and put the pillow on the floor next to him and head to my room.
I lay on my bed with his jacket still on. I love the smell of Austin. I take it in, and feel a smile come on my face. I keep trying to fall asleep, but I can't when i hear my door handle wiggle and twist open. Austin stands in the doorway, his shirt is off all of his tattoos showing.
"Sorry I thought this was the bathroom." He says. "But I guess this is better." he says walking over to the bed.
"Austin-" I begin to say, but he comes in for a kiss. I want to reject this, but I don't. He pushes me back onto the bed, my heart is racing. He slides up my dress and lays kisses on my neck as I let out a moan. This is so wrong, but I let love it. Suddenly I hear Felicity's voice in the distance, she must be in the house, I push Austin off, and open my eyes.
"Lily." Felicity says sitting next to me on the bed. "Finally you wakeup. Call Adam, he's freaking out." I try to catch my breath. A dream. I'm all sweaty from it. It felt so weird. "You okay? I see you and Austin reunited!" She says excited. "Tell me you two didn't..."
"No." I stop her before she even begins. "No." I say again. She has a devilish grin on her lips.
"Just asking." She says. "Anyway call Adam. He called me about a hundred times." She rolls her eyes and hands me my cell phone. I quickly call Adam back.
"Lily! Where have you been?!" He sounds relieved.
"I'm so sorry Adam, I was out last night and left my phone in Felicity's car."
"You scared me." He says. "I'm just glad you're alright."
"Yeah, I need to talk to you about something." I say, "So my friend wants to move in with us for a little while. I figured you wouldn't mind."
"Yeah who is she?"
"Austin." He's silent for an uncomfortable amount of time.
"Your ex-fiance Austin, wants to move in with us?" I hear him laugh sarcastically. "Your ex-fiance. Lily. Do you understand how stupid that sounds?"
"Adam, he was my best friend too."
"Lily, isn't it a little odd that he suddenly wants to stay with you, when I'm not around and you're getting married to me in two weeks?"
"Adam, he had no clue I was even getting married... and I offered him to stay."
"You're ridiculous Lily, how about you go think about this, and call me back when you've come to your senses." Click, he's gone. I'm so angry looking down at my phone.
"Lily, you really asked him to stay?" She asks quietly.
"Felicity, I just wanted to help." I say. "What time is it?"
"It's one. I'm going to help Austin get his things, and you can go meet with the wedding planner and we can meet up here after." I nod standing up and heading to the shower. I hated when Adam was mad at me, but did he even trust me? I was angry. When I got out of the shower I put on some clothes and threw on some makeup and headed out, Austin wasn't there.

After meeting with my wedding planner a weight had been lifted off of my shoulders again, one less thing to worry about. After I stopped to pick up some coffee I decided to go stop by Austin's house, and see what I could help bring over. When I get there, I see him and Felicity's cars in the driveway, so I head right in. I go from the living room to the kitchen but it's quiet. I head upstairs to his room, where music is playing. I go to open the door and feel my heart drop into my stomach.
"Uh. Leaving." I mutter without thinking. I back towards the door, run down the stairs, even with my name being called. I jump into my car and pull away quickly. How embarrassing I think. I start sobbing loudly, and I don't even know why. Austin wasn't mine, I loved Adam. What was I thinking.

Austin a few minutes before...

I sat packing on my bed, and Felicity sat beside me folding clothes and placing them in a box.
"It's great that you and Lily are friends again." She says stopping and looking at me. "But Austin are you just trying to get her back?" not technically.
"No. Felicity, I'm just glad we're friends. And we were roommates before we dated, remember?" She nods.
"Well, she really loves Adam. She's not going to back out." she says, making me a little annoyed. "It'll probably be a little lonely, don't you think? living with a married couple, when you're all alone?"
"Felicity, where are you going with this?" I ask, facing her.
"I'm just saying, that if you're ever lonely, I can keep you company." She glides her hand over my chest, and quickly kisses my lips. I almost object but I let her keep going. She's pushing me back on to the bed, after throwing off her shirt and taking off her jeans. She climbs on top of me, pinning my arms above my head, and kissing me once again. All I could think about was Lily. I feel myself smiling pretending that this is her. Felicity is pulling off my shirt, and kissing down my chest, and my to my waist. I close my eyes, and pretend it's Lily, as she unbuckles and pulls down my pants.
I feel her climbing back on top of me, up my neck, back to my lips. She doesn't smell like Lily, or kiss like Lily. She doesn't feel like Lily, or touch like Lily. When suddenly the door is open and Lily's standing in my room. I quickly push Felicity off of me and sit up, she says something inaudible, and darts out the door. I rush after her, calling her name, but she's gone. I head back to my room, my hearts pounding, I feel so guilty.
The look on Lily's face burned in my head. Felicity quickly pulled her jeans up and fixed her hair in the mirror over my dresser. "Should we finish packing?"
"No." I say flatly.
"No?" She says starting to pull her shirt back off.
"No, I should finish packing, you should go apologize to Lily."
"Apologize? Austin, you're not with her. You're allowed to do whatever and whoever you want."
"Well..." I can't find words to say, but I want her gone. "Just go." I say turning away from her. "I'm heading to Lily's by myself okay?"
"Whatever." She sighs. "Just remember, I'm single and you're single, and nothing we did here was wrong." She shrugs, and I turn away from her. I hear her leave, going down the stairs and out the door to her car.
If it wasn't wrong, why did it feel so wrong? Why did I feel so guilty. I jumped in the shower, I felt disgusting. I put on new clothes, and didn't even grab my things, I just got in my car and drove to Lily's. I needed to explain to her what happened. What a mistake...

Lily.

I got home quickly rushing to clean my face off. I couldn't believe I was crying about this. Austin wasn't mine. I looked so stupid. I was pacing back in forth until I turn to find Austin walking through my front door.
"How dare you?!" I find words coming out of my mouth full force. "I thought you loved me?"
"Lily... I." I'm covering my mouth, I didn't want to say that... did I?
"No Austin, I'm sorry I didn't mean to say that. I just. Seeing that was a lot to swallow okay, I'm sorry." I say, and I feel myself wanting to cry, but I try to hold back. He comes over to me and wraps me in a hug. That assuring hug. The one that always assured me everything would be alright. I loved this hug, and I sank into it. He smelled so good, just out of the shower, I could tell.
"Lily, I didn't want that okay, it just happened so fast. I didn't have time to even process the situation."
"Austin you don't have to apologize." I say pulling back, just enough to look up at him, those brown eyes.
"Felicity won't so I am."
"Austin, let's go get your things." I say quickly changing the subject and pull away from him, getting way to comfortable in our embrace. He nods smiling, that smile, the one that melted my heart...
"I'll drive." He says going past me, I watch as he starts heading out, but I don't move. Did I just feel that, I hope I didn't just feel that old familiar feeling. I shake this away, because I love Adam. I love Adam. I love Adam... right?

Comments

@TheStorm No prob! :)

@Iyonnea'sthebandwh0re Thank you very much!!! :) I really appreciate it!
TheStorm TheStorm
8/17/13
Thank you very much!!! :)
TheStorm TheStorm
8/17/13
Wow, I frigging loved it! So ballsy to stop the wedding for the one you love.