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This One's For Us

Wedding Bells

The next morning, I'm woken up by my mom and the bridesmaids, and I'm groggy and tired. The makeup artist and hair stylist is here, and beginning on some of the girls. It's hectic already, and I feel empty. I get into the shower, and think about Austin. I get out and my mind hasn't moved. I wondered if he'd be back, and I wondered if I was making the wrong move. Everyone is so happy, and I must play along. I throw on a smile, and get in the chair to get my hair done. I then get my makeup applied and get a camera flashed into my eyes every couple minutes.

I'm feeling the guilt consume me more and more as I'm being all dolled up, and the bridesmaids are shrieking and crying. My mom is here too, excited. I wonder if she's playing along or she can tell that something's wrong. Everything is wrong.

"Are you excited?" My mom asks, like she's reading my mind. "Do you want to talk?" I shake my head, even though I know that she could probably help me figure this out. Austin was right, maybe I should just stop the wedding until I'm sure. I had to make a choice by 3 o'clock. I had to make the right choice.

Austin.

I sat at Alan's house while the rest of the guys got ready, and just thought about my option's. I booked a flight with my dad to Costa Rica, just for a little get away, because if Lily picked Adam, I'd have to go away and figure out how to move on.
"Austin?" Alan's voice breaks into my ears. "I've been calling you for three billion hours, now will you come get in this picture, we all look dashing." He says, talking about all of our suits. I laugh nervously and stand up to join the group of my best friends... minus one of course.
After a lot of pictures, Alan sits down with me, and I can tell he knows something is up. I decide to pull him aside and tell him everything. Eyes wide, mouth gaping, he tries to take it all in, but I know he will give me the advice I need.
"Well." he says after a few seconds. "First of all, she definitely needs to just not get married today, and secondly you need to go tell her how you feel."
"She already know's I still like her."
"But that's not enough, you got to tell her every detail and just lay it on the line. If she doesn't feel the same, then you go to Costa Rica, you take that vacation and you write some amazing lyrics, and soak up the sun and get all the emotion for her out. You need to move on if she doesn't return the love Austin. It just wouldn't be fair to you." I take in his words and nod, because he's right.
"I'll see you at the ceremony." I say to Alan. "I have to go speak my peace."

Lily.

I drank wine, a good amount of wine, but I felt more emotional than before. I had my white gown on and I looked around the room, all of these happy faces were making me sick. I wasn't happy, I needed some time to clear my head.

"Everyone!" I say loudly, and they all stop to look at me. "Everyone, I just need some time alone, can you please go out into the living room, just for a little while." They all nod and go back full volume, but flood out the door. I look at myself in the mirror, I must have looked beautiful, but I didn't see it. I seen a liar and a sad excuse for a bride. I threw my wine glass across the room, and put my face into my hands.

I hear my mom telling someone they couldn't come in, and I heard that familiar calming voice saying that he would go in and leave if I asked, but I didn't plan to. I just sat up, as he turned the handle to my room, and walked in. I stand up and look up at him, dressed in a suit and bow tie, looking handsome as ever. He just covers his mouth, and looks at me, squinting his eyes, hiding an incredible smile that he finally uncovers. He then covers his eyes, and I now know he's crying.

"Austin?" I softly say not knowing what to do.

"Lily, you just look... breathtaking. I mean so incredibly beautiful, there isn't even a good enough word." He says, choking out these words, and I feel my heart beat fast, and I feel my stomach turn. His reaction is what every girl dreams of on their wedding day, but the twist was that, this wasn't my groom. I feel tears rushing down my face as he stands there composing himself.
"Lily, I didn't come here to cry or beg for you back, I just came here to give you my peace... a blessing I guess." He pulls me to sit down on the chair as he kneels in front of me. He keeps my hands in his, and when my eyes meet his, I don't want to take them off.

"Lily, to start off, you are the most beautiful girl I've ever had the pleasure of knowing. Lily for all of this time, I've known you I've loved every inch of your being. From the good and the bad. I've loved it all. I've always loved the smell of your hair, and the way your skin felt when you got out of the shower. I love the way you look when you concentrate to hard on something. I love when you're confused and you always look to me for answers. I love when you're passionate for something, like your photography, the way you want to get the best shot every single time. I love how you still cry every single time you watch 'The Notebook.' I just love all of the little thing's and the big things and everything in between. Lily, I just love you." He has tears streaming down his cheeks. "I love you, and that's why I'm here to support you, and let you go, because that's what real love is. I love you Lily, and I want you to be happy." He looks down, and starts sobbing. I'm crying too, and my heart sinks deeper into my chest, so bad it hurts. We're both sitting there, hand in hand, crying. After a few minutes he's silent, and I am too, we're both just trying to breath.

"Lily, I'm going away to Costa Rica tonight." I look up at him quickly. "I need to have some time away from everything, just to think." Someone's knocking on the door. "I'll be back, but I need to go tonight. For me." I nod quickly, as my mom's calling from the other side.
"Lily! Let's go the limo is here! You'll be late!"
"Now go get 'em tiger." He says, smiling to me. "I'll see you there." He grabs me to an incredible hug, one that I don't want to let go of, but my mother comes through the door.
"Let's go!" She says impatiently. And after Austin pulls away he quickly heads for the door. I hoped I'd see him before he left, because this couldn't be goodbye. "Lily, you're makeup is all down your face." She says, but I don't even care.
I'm rushed to the limo, and getting my makeup finished by the time I get to the venue. My huge gown was getting annoying as I tried to move around in it. I couldn't get Austin off my mind. I wondered if he'd be there, or if he left already. I feel my heart pounding uncontrollably when I'm walking up to the hall that I'll walk down to see my groom. My dad's by my side and my bridesmaids are walking before me, and here goes nothing.

Everyone is standing as I make my way down the aisle. I look around looking for Austin, and when I see Alan, Tino, Phil, and Aaron, I know he's next. He looks at me with a smile on his lips and I can't look away. I keep going up to where Adam is standing, and he takes me hands. He's smiling widely as the preacher starts saying the opening ceremony. I can't focus on anything so I look blankly into Adam's eyes.

Out of the corner I see Austin, slowly stand up and quietly head for the door, and I watch him walk out, and I know what I have to do.
"Stop!" I say. "I'm sorry Adam. I'm so incredibly sorry, but I can't do this." I say. I hear everyone in the chapel gasp. "I'd be lying to you and myself." I start to slide off the engagement ring he had given me and I hand it to him. Everyone starts whispering, and Adam looks shocked. "I love you, but I can't go through with this." I say, and with that, I turn and run after the man I know I should be with. I hold up my dress as I make my way for the door, and when I get outside, Austin's not there.
"Did you see a tall guy walk by here?" I ask the limo driver.
"He got in a cab that was waiting here." he says and when I turn around Alan, Tino, Phil, and Aaron are standing there.
"We can help you we think." Alan says. "Austin's flight is in an hour so we have to get to the airport but I don't know if we'll miss him." He says.
"Let's go!" I say. and I follow Alan to his car. Still in my wedding dress I'm squished in the front seat. The airport is pretty far from where we are but I hoped we'd make it. Alan hands me his phone.
"Try calling him." and I do quickly dialing his well memorized number. It goes straight to voicemail. I try a few more times, but it doesn't change.
"His phone is off." I say sighing. "I hope I get there in time." I sit back and look around at the sights we pass.
"You really love Austin don't you?" Alan asks. I nod.
"I'm in love with him, and I love him." I smile and look at him.
"You made the right decision Lily, I just want you to know that." He smiles, and I smile too, because I know I did. I feel it in my heart, that this is the right path I have taken. I can't wait to see Austin.

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Austin.

The whole time at the airport I kept looking behind me. I kept hoping that Lily followed me, and was coming with me, or at least trying to get me to stay. Every head of long brown hair was Lily but I couldn't stop them all. I hoped when I came back, I'd be over the fact that she married someone else, and I hoped I could move on and be happy myself.
On the plane I wrote her a letter, one I planned to mail to her, wishing her great luck in her marriage. My phone was left at home, and I had my father with me. I felt a little relief knowing that I had some time to myself coming. I slept and when I woke up we were getting let off at the resort I had booked. It felt good to be here.
I rented a small beach house right on the beach, with a hammock swinging from two trees and a beautiful view of the ocean. There were others just like it all around. I already felt some relaxation slipping in. The rest of my night is spent with my dad talking and eating dinner, and then right to sleep.
The next day I'm sitting out on the beach just looking out at the water, I wonder what Lily's up to, even though I know I shouldn't. I feel a hand on my shoulder, and I notice it's not my dads. I quickly look up and I notice a face so unexpected I might faint.
"Surprise." She says softly, and I am at a loss of words. I look around and Adam is no where to be seen. I stand up still not knowing what to say, and without a word, Lily jumps into my arms, and kisses my lips.
"Lily! How did you? What happened? How is this?" I can't even finish my sentences.
"Austin I left. I didn't get married to Adam, I followed you but you were gone." She says her hands are on my chest. "I had to do the right thing, and this was it. I love you and I always have. I need to and want to be with you." She says and I lift her up as she wraps her legs around my waist and I kiss her lips. I feel her lips smile as I carry her to the ocean and throw her in and dive in along side her in our clothes. I was so incredibly happy, that I couldn't stop smiling.
Later on in the night we laid out in the hammock together, swinging softly, and laughing and talking and I realized that this was pure happiness. I was happy and I could tell she was, and this is all we both had ever wanted.

Notes

Lily's Wedding Look: here

Comments

@TheStorm No prob! :)

@Iyonnea'sthebandwh0re Thank you very much!!! :) I really appreciate it!
TheStorm TheStorm
8/17/13
Thank you very much!!! :)
TheStorm TheStorm
8/17/13
Wow, I frigging loved it! So ballsy to stop the wedding for the one you love.