This One's For Us
Homecoming
My heart is pounding out of my chest as I spring up in my bed. Lennon barely moves opening one of his eyes. I try to catch my breath as I reach for the glass of water next to the bed. I'm shaking almost uncontrollably. Another night of night terrors has waken me up. I glance at the alarm clock. It's only 3 a.m. I have ten hours before Austin is back home with me. Maybe these will go away. I throw the blankets off my bed and head to the bathroom. I look at myself in the mirror. My eyes have dark circles under them. I've barely slept in weeks. I turn on some cold water and splash it on my face, takes some deep breaths and head back to my bed.
It's been two months since I've seen Austin. I missed him so much. Skype with him wasn't the same as having him physically with me. I was really glad, this was my last night alone. I cried for the first two weeks he was gone every night, but then I realized this made it seem longer. Once I started getting used to it, the nightmares kicked in, and then full on night terrors. Those I didn't remember. I just woke up, scared.
Lennon stretched himself across my side of the bed. I smiled and rub his stomach that he presents to me. I kiss his little nose, and he nuzzles close to me. I had a lot to do. Austin was taking me out for dinner and I needed to get out of the slump i was in. I needed to get back to sleep.
I laid down shutting my eyes, but now that I thought about Austin coming home and I was filled with excitement and even happiness. My stomach was filled with butterflies and I felt a smile gracing my lips. I sprung out of bed, and went to the kitchen, I thought I should clean up, make it look really nice when Austin came through the door.
Once I got started I didn't stop, I cleaned the kitchen and the living room and the bathroom. It was five when I finished. I decided to take a shower, and take Lennon for a walk around the block and even after all that, only another hour passed. I pouted when i got into the house and seen the clock. I sat on the couch and put on the TV. A movie had to be on, and once I found one, I ended up falling right back asleep.
Austin.
I loved touring more than anything, but I missed Lily more than anything. I sat on the plane eagerly tapping my foot for a while. I didn't even sleep. I had a gift for her in my hand, I knew she'd love. I held in it my hands, opening it every once in a while, hoping she'd love it. I couldn't wait to see those brown eyes in person. Touch her soft skin. Smell her hair. I found myself grinning like an idiot, and Tino was laughing to himself probably at me.
"She'll like it man, I promise."
"I hope." I say letting out a nervous chuckle. I looked out the window at the clouds below me. I couldn't wait to get home, and give it to her. I had other small gifts too, that I knew she'd love. I was grinning again.
Every single night on stage made me the happiest man in the world. The fans I've met were incredible. They all had stories to tell, and gifts to bring. I some letters on me, and I started reading them. It took my mind off of some things, and made time go by. Such great people. I loved my fans, and I could never stress that enough.
Hours passed and finally we were landing in L.A. I felt my heart jumping looking for Lily's sweet face. I knew she wasn't picking me up, but I still hoped she'd be there. Every head with long brown hair, made me double take, made my heart race until I realized it wasn't her. I grab my suitcase and get in the car with Tino and Phil. On the way to my house we stop and I grab sunflowers from a flower shop, Lily's favorite.
Pulling up in front of my house I was nervous, like this was my first date. I tried to keep composure grabbing my suitcases out of the trunk of the car and as it pulled away I kind of just stared at the house. Having the next four months to my self and Lily was going to be great.
I slowly walk up to my front door as if it wasn't my house. I twist open the door and make my way inside. The television was playing a movie. I make my way towards the bedroom where I assume Lily is, but she isn't. I feel let down but when I walk back out to the living room, I find her, sleeping on the couch. Lennon sits staring up at me, growling in a tiny voice.
Lily shifts a bit but her eyes are shut. I feel a smile coming to my lips. I feel like I haven't seen her in years. I sneak up to her and kiss her nose. She slowly opens her eyes and then her eyes grow wide.
"Hi." I whisper smiling. She sits up quickly wrapping her arms around me. The smell of her hair has come back to me, I hold her tightly, not wanting to let go. The sweetest scent, flowery, she pulls back and starts kissing my lips. Her soft pink lips, moving with mine once again. I don't even get to hand her the flowers, that have fallen on the floor.
"Austin I missed you so much." She says quietly her little hands are around my face, holding it to her forehead. There are tears dripping down her rosy red cheeks.
"Well, I'm here." I grin kissing her lips quickly and pulling away, and picking up the flowers, and presenting them to her. Her eyes light up, and her bright white teeth are showing.
"for me!?" She says excited. I nod quickly sitting on the couch beside her. She grabs them out of my hands quickly smelling the big yellow flowers. "Beautiful." She pulls me back over for another kiss. I hear tiny growls from Lennon again, and we both giggle.
"Jealous little man, you had her all to yourself." I pull out the other small gifts, candles, candies, and a postcard. She always loved little things, next I pull out the ring. I hand her the tiny box. She smiles and looks up at me. She hesitantly opens the small box and grins again.
"It's beautiful." She says staring down at it, the smile still on her face. She slips it onto her finger and beams at it, I feel so proud. "It's beautiful." She repeats.
"It's a promise ring." I smile. The little silver ring looks perfect on her finger. "So you know that I'm dedicated to you... I know it's hard when I'm on the road, but this will remind you, when I'm not with you, that you have my heart."
"Austin." She smiles and then bites her lip staring at it more. "Thank you."
"You're welcome beautiful." I kiss her cheek.
"I loved all the gifts you brought but nothing compares to the fact that you're back." I grab her face and kiss her lips fiercely.
"And nothing compares to having my lips on yours again." I smile kissing her nose. "Now, what to do?"
"I don't care." She grabs my hand and binds it to mine with her fingers. "I could do anything with you, and I'd be happy."
"I agree." I smile and kiss her forehead. She cuddles up close to me, and I feel complete again.
Lily.
The day was spent cuddling with Austin, kissing him, tracing the freckles on his face. I was incredibly happy that he was back, it made everything better again. I loved the promise ring, and at first I was nervous to open the little velvet box. It was perfect. Just like having him back. We knew that we had to get ready for our big dinner date with everyone.
I wore a red dress with silver heels I bought a while ago, and never got to ware. I haven't dressed up in a while, so I went all out. I curled and styled my hair and did my makeup and by the time I was done, I felt amazing. I looked at myself in the mirror, and felt Austin's arms gently slide around my waist. He smelled so good, out of the shower and all cleaned up, and as he kissed my neck, I couldn't help but think about ripping all of our clothes off. He had on a suit and tie and he looked amazing.
"Ready?" He asks smiling at our reflections in the mirror. I nod, resisting the urge, and Austin takes out his phone and to take some photos together. We're interrupted by a phone call, telling us that we had to go.
The night started off slow. A sushi dinner with all of the guys and their girlfriends. It was the most fun I had in months. Telling jokes, sharing stories about fans and shows, and the things they seen on their tour. I feel Austin's warm hand on my thigh and I get goose bumps, and bite my lip without looking away from the conversation already happening. I place my hand on his and gently run my fingers over his soft hand.
Next we're all heading to one of their favorite clubs for drinks and dancing. Austin's arm is wrapped around my waist while we laugh, talk, and drink with everyone. When I start feeling the alcohol kick in, I start dancing. I pull Austin close to me, and we move to the music together. He spins me around and holds me close, kissing my lips, the sweet taste that I missed. This kiss tells me that it's time to go home.
Austin and I say our goodbyes to the guys and their girlfriends and we're headed outside. Austin is pressing himself against me, kissing me more, his hands trailing through my hair, and down my back. My hands through his hair, and and down his chest. We can't keep our hands off of each other.
When the taxi stops, we climb in giving him the address and back at it. The ride home seems to long, and when we stop and pay the taxi driver, Austin's grabbing my hand and we're practically running towards the door.
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As soon as the front door is shut, he's pushing me against the door, kissing my lips soft and sexy. He locks the door and begins kissing my neck, and taking little nips with his teeth. I missed this so much, I missed his lips to my skin and lips. I found myself biting my lip and letting out a soft moan. He like what he heard because he started pulling of my dress. He lifted me up and let me wrap my legs around his thin waist.
His lips find their way back to mine, carrying me away, to our bed. He lays me down and crawls towards me as I crawl back. His teeth trace my neck and chest, and again I'm moaning. I want Austin already, he's such a tease. I pull off his suit jacket, but I don't know if I want the rest of it off, he looks so damn good.
"Uh uh." He smiles that perfect white tooth smile, and pushes my heads above my hands. His hands are now tracing down my body, giving me chills, and back up to take off my bra. "This is all for you." He kisses down my hips to the top of my panties. I bite my lip as he looks up with me with a smirk.
I don't want to wait anymore as I grab the collar to his shirt and pull him up to my lips, kissing him, letting him know what I want. I feel him smiling in the kiss and I push myself on top of him. He doesn't try to stop me, as I unbutton his shirt and take my turn kissing down his tattooed chest. His hands are gentle, running his fingers through my hair.
"Lily." He moans out, as I'm pulling down his pants and running my hands down his thighs.
"Yes Austin?" I say stopping.
"Come here." He pulls me up to him, his lips. Our skin against skin felt amazing. The heat from his body was giving me chills I just had to have him. I pull him on top of me, and he finally starts pulling down my underwear. We kiss as he thrusts himself inside me, and I let out a moan between kisses.
His forehead is pressed to mine and we're staring into each others eyes, and how much I love him is flooding my entire body. I feel more amazing then I ever have in this moment, I feel everything building up, and I shut my eyes and tilt my head back. The intensity is incredible, as we both let out loud sighs. He gently lays on top of me and we try and catch our breath. I run my fingers through his brown hair, and smile up at him as he smiles down at me.
"I love you." He whispers.
"And I love you." I say, pushing him over and crawling on top of him. I couldn't get enough.
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By the end of the night, we're laying next to each other exhausted, skin on skin. We're giggling quietly, and we now have Lennon cuddled beside us. Austin is softly tracing his fingers up my arms to my face. I'm listening to his heartbeat and slowly falling asleep.
It's been two months since I've seen Austin. I missed him so much. Skype with him wasn't the same as having him physically with me. I was really glad, this was my last night alone. I cried for the first two weeks he was gone every night, but then I realized this made it seem longer. Once I started getting used to it, the nightmares kicked in, and then full on night terrors. Those I didn't remember. I just woke up, scared.
Lennon stretched himself across my side of the bed. I smiled and rub his stomach that he presents to me. I kiss his little nose, and he nuzzles close to me. I had a lot to do. Austin was taking me out for dinner and I needed to get out of the slump i was in. I needed to get back to sleep.
I laid down shutting my eyes, but now that I thought about Austin coming home and I was filled with excitement and even happiness. My stomach was filled with butterflies and I felt a smile gracing my lips. I sprung out of bed, and went to the kitchen, I thought I should clean up, make it look really nice when Austin came through the door.
Once I got started I didn't stop, I cleaned the kitchen and the living room and the bathroom. It was five when I finished. I decided to take a shower, and take Lennon for a walk around the block and even after all that, only another hour passed. I pouted when i got into the house and seen the clock. I sat on the couch and put on the TV. A movie had to be on, and once I found one, I ended up falling right back asleep.
Austin.
I loved touring more than anything, but I missed Lily more than anything. I sat on the plane eagerly tapping my foot for a while. I didn't even sleep. I had a gift for her in my hand, I knew she'd love. I held in it my hands, opening it every once in a while, hoping she'd love it. I couldn't wait to see those brown eyes in person. Touch her soft skin. Smell her hair. I found myself grinning like an idiot, and Tino was laughing to himself probably at me.
"She'll like it man, I promise."
"I hope." I say letting out a nervous chuckle. I looked out the window at the clouds below me. I couldn't wait to get home, and give it to her. I had other small gifts too, that I knew she'd love. I was grinning again.
Every single night on stage made me the happiest man in the world. The fans I've met were incredible. They all had stories to tell, and gifts to bring. I some letters on me, and I started reading them. It took my mind off of some things, and made time go by. Such great people. I loved my fans, and I could never stress that enough.
Hours passed and finally we were landing in L.A. I felt my heart jumping looking for Lily's sweet face. I knew she wasn't picking me up, but I still hoped she'd be there. Every head with long brown hair, made me double take, made my heart race until I realized it wasn't her. I grab my suitcase and get in the car with Tino and Phil. On the way to my house we stop and I grab sunflowers from a flower shop, Lily's favorite.
Pulling up in front of my house I was nervous, like this was my first date. I tried to keep composure grabbing my suitcases out of the trunk of the car and as it pulled away I kind of just stared at the house. Having the next four months to my self and Lily was going to be great.
I slowly walk up to my front door as if it wasn't my house. I twist open the door and make my way inside. The television was playing a movie. I make my way towards the bedroom where I assume Lily is, but she isn't. I feel let down but when I walk back out to the living room, I find her, sleeping on the couch. Lennon sits staring up at me, growling in a tiny voice.
Lily shifts a bit but her eyes are shut. I feel a smile coming to my lips. I feel like I haven't seen her in years. I sneak up to her and kiss her nose. She slowly opens her eyes and then her eyes grow wide.
"Hi." I whisper smiling. She sits up quickly wrapping her arms around me. The smell of her hair has come back to me, I hold her tightly, not wanting to let go. The sweetest scent, flowery, she pulls back and starts kissing my lips. Her soft pink lips, moving with mine once again. I don't even get to hand her the flowers, that have fallen on the floor.
"Austin I missed you so much." She says quietly her little hands are around my face, holding it to her forehead. There are tears dripping down her rosy red cheeks.
"Well, I'm here." I grin kissing her lips quickly and pulling away, and picking up the flowers, and presenting them to her. Her eyes light up, and her bright white teeth are showing.
"for me!?" She says excited. I nod quickly sitting on the couch beside her. She grabs them out of my hands quickly smelling the big yellow flowers. "Beautiful." She pulls me back over for another kiss. I hear tiny growls from Lennon again, and we both giggle.
"Jealous little man, you had her all to yourself." I pull out the other small gifts, candles, candies, and a postcard. She always loved little things, next I pull out the ring. I hand her the tiny box. She smiles and looks up at me. She hesitantly opens the small box and grins again.
"It's beautiful." She says staring down at it, the smile still on her face. She slips it onto her finger and beams at it, I feel so proud. "It's beautiful." She repeats.
"It's a promise ring." I smile. The little silver ring looks perfect on her finger. "So you know that I'm dedicated to you... I know it's hard when I'm on the road, but this will remind you, when I'm not with you, that you have my heart."
"Austin." She smiles and then bites her lip staring at it more. "Thank you."
"You're welcome beautiful." I kiss her cheek.
"I loved all the gifts you brought but nothing compares to the fact that you're back." I grab her face and kiss her lips fiercely.
"And nothing compares to having my lips on yours again." I smile kissing her nose. "Now, what to do?"
"I don't care." She grabs my hand and binds it to mine with her fingers. "I could do anything with you, and I'd be happy."
"I agree." I smile and kiss her forehead. She cuddles up close to me, and I feel complete again.
Lily.
The day was spent cuddling with Austin, kissing him, tracing the freckles on his face. I was incredibly happy that he was back, it made everything better again. I loved the promise ring, and at first I was nervous to open the little velvet box. It was perfect. Just like having him back. We knew that we had to get ready for our big dinner date with everyone.
I wore a red dress with silver heels I bought a while ago, and never got to ware. I haven't dressed up in a while, so I went all out. I curled and styled my hair and did my makeup and by the time I was done, I felt amazing. I looked at myself in the mirror, and felt Austin's arms gently slide around my waist. He smelled so good, out of the shower and all cleaned up, and as he kissed my neck, I couldn't help but think about ripping all of our clothes off. He had on a suit and tie and he looked amazing.
"Ready?" He asks smiling at our reflections in the mirror. I nod, resisting the urge, and Austin takes out his phone and to take some photos together. We're interrupted by a phone call, telling us that we had to go.
The night started off slow. A sushi dinner with all of the guys and their girlfriends. It was the most fun I had in months. Telling jokes, sharing stories about fans and shows, and the things they seen on their tour. I feel Austin's warm hand on my thigh and I get goose bumps, and bite my lip without looking away from the conversation already happening. I place my hand on his and gently run my fingers over his soft hand.
Next we're all heading to one of their favorite clubs for drinks and dancing. Austin's arm is wrapped around my waist while we laugh, talk, and drink with everyone. When I start feeling the alcohol kick in, I start dancing. I pull Austin close to me, and we move to the music together. He spins me around and holds me close, kissing my lips, the sweet taste that I missed. This kiss tells me that it's time to go home.
Austin and I say our goodbyes to the guys and their girlfriends and we're headed outside. Austin is pressing himself against me, kissing me more, his hands trailing through my hair, and down my back. My hands through his hair, and and down his chest. We can't keep our hands off of each other.
When the taxi stops, we climb in giving him the address and back at it. The ride home seems to long, and when we stop and pay the taxi driver, Austin's grabbing my hand and we're practically running towards the door.
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As soon as the front door is shut, he's pushing me against the door, kissing my lips soft and sexy. He locks the door and begins kissing my neck, and taking little nips with his teeth. I missed this so much, I missed his lips to my skin and lips. I found myself biting my lip and letting out a soft moan. He like what he heard because he started pulling of my dress. He lifted me up and let me wrap my legs around his thin waist.
His lips find their way back to mine, carrying me away, to our bed. He lays me down and crawls towards me as I crawl back. His teeth trace my neck and chest, and again I'm moaning. I want Austin already, he's such a tease. I pull off his suit jacket, but I don't know if I want the rest of it off, he looks so damn good.
"Uh uh." He smiles that perfect white tooth smile, and pushes my heads above my hands. His hands are now tracing down my body, giving me chills, and back up to take off my bra. "This is all for you." He kisses down my hips to the top of my panties. I bite my lip as he looks up with me with a smirk.
I don't want to wait anymore as I grab the collar to his shirt and pull him up to my lips, kissing him, letting him know what I want. I feel him smiling in the kiss and I push myself on top of him. He doesn't try to stop me, as I unbutton his shirt and take my turn kissing down his tattooed chest. His hands are gentle, running his fingers through my hair.
"Lily." He moans out, as I'm pulling down his pants and running my hands down his thighs.
"Yes Austin?" I say stopping.
"Come here." He pulls me up to him, his lips. Our skin against skin felt amazing. The heat from his body was giving me chills I just had to have him. I pull him on top of me, and he finally starts pulling down my underwear. We kiss as he thrusts himself inside me, and I let out a moan between kisses.
His forehead is pressed to mine and we're staring into each others eyes, and how much I love him is flooding my entire body. I feel more amazing then I ever have in this moment, I feel everything building up, and I shut my eyes and tilt my head back. The intensity is incredible, as we both let out loud sighs. He gently lays on top of me and we try and catch our breath. I run my fingers through his brown hair, and smile up at him as he smiles down at me.
"I love you." He whispers.
"And I love you." I say, pushing him over and crawling on top of him. I couldn't get enough.
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By the end of the night, we're laying next to each other exhausted, skin on skin. We're giggling quietly, and we now have Lennon cuddled beside us. Austin is softly tracing his fingers up my arms to my face. I'm listening to his heartbeat and slowly falling asleep.
8/19/13