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This One is for You.

Nothing More

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I can't help but pull him into the bus with me. Our lips barely part as we make our way into the bus. He slides off my soaking wet shirt and I slide of his, as we stand by the bunks. He starts trailing kisses down my neck and back up to my ear where he goes back down. As he does this I unbutton his black jeans sticking to his legs from the rain. His strong arms are surrounding me and his forehead is pressed against mine, as I pull the down. He kisses my lips more, gently biting my bottom lip as he pulls off my jean shorts clinging to my body. Our breathing is heavy, and impatient as he picks me up letting me wrap my legs around his small waist.

He drops me on a couch in the back lounge and grabs a blanket from his bunk. I pull him on top of me, before he even has a chance to lay it down anywhere.

"Hold on." He breathes. I nod though I'm impatiently waiting for his lips and hands to come back to me. He locks the back lounge and picks me up placing the blanket over the couch and now climbing on top of me. His lips are finally back, and better than ever. He unhooks my bra, kissing down my chest and nibbling along the way. A light moan escapes from my mouth as he heads farther down. I can't help but thrust my hips towards him.

"Soon enough baby." he says kissing my waist and pulling my panties down, but his lips kiss their way back to my mouth. He's never called me baby before, but it sounds so great coming from his lips, giving me chills. Our kiss is hard, and impatient. I feel his boxers, his erection pressing against my naked body. I need him, and I want him all of him. I pull his boxers down and he helps pull them off, finally every tattoo in full sight, what a beautiful sight, this man on top of me. He finally thrusts into me softly.

"Austin..." I gasp as he thrusts deeper. His forehead is pressed softly against mine, and I'm staring into those beautiful brown eyes of his. He's moving in a slow pace, but it feels so great. When he starts picking up the pace I shut my eyes and feel his lips kissing my neck again. My hands are clawing down his back. He moans into my neck.

His skin against mine, sends shivers straight down my spine. My heart is pumping so fast. I feel him push my hands above my head, and his fingers intertwine with my own. His eyes are looking into mine again. I feel everything building up, and a moan escapes from his lips again.

He's looking straight into my eyes again, and I've never felt this when I've looked at him before.

"I love you." I say. "I love you." These words leave my mouth without a single thought. An orgasm explodes leaving me shaking, I feel Austin's forehead back to mine, but I keep my eyes shut, trying to catch my breath.

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We lay there for a minute, trying to breathe more calm now. I smile, pulling his head closer to my lips. I wonder if he felt what I did. I wonder if the whole world disappeared. I have never felt this with anyone, not even Derek. It didn't feel like, just sex. It felt like making love. The way he looked into my eyes, I shiver at the thought and he starts to stand up. We say nothing but he wraps his fingers in mine, and we slowly leave the back lounge. We hear the guys in the front of the bus and I feel my face flush red... did they just hear Austin and I... Austin doesn't seem to mind, we climb into the bunk, nothing but skin and blanket. I put my head on his chest and take in his sweet masculine scent. I trace the tattoos on his skin. Did he feel what I felt? I can't help but wonder, but I'm terrified to ask.

Austin.

Did she feel what I felt. My heart was still pumping. I held her close to me, taking in the scent of her hair, flowery. I kiss her forehead. Why didn't this happen before. I always loved Lily, but could I possibly be in love with Lily. She can't love me like that could she? I shut my eyes, but the thoughts are endless. Could this have been a one time thing, or did it mean something? I want to ask, but I should probably wait. I touch my fingertips to her soft, tan skin and kiss her shoulder, her neck, her lips. She climbs on top of me. Her hands massaging through my hair.

"I love you too." I say quietly, replying to her telling me she loved me, minutes ago. "I always will." I say. She replies with nothing more than another kiss to my lips, her hands hold mine, and we start all over again...

Hours later she falls asleep. I lay there staring up at the ceiling. I keep replaying everything, giving me chills. Every kiss, every time her skin was on mine, everything. I hear her breathing slow and even. She mumbles a bit in her sleep. I just hold her. This moment is something I've never felt before. I smile at that, because it's the greatest I've felt, in a long, long time.

Lily.

When I wake up it has to be the next morning. Austin's arm is wrapped around me but I need to use the bathroom. I slowly climb over him grabbing a sheet to wrap myself in. I didn't realize how sore I was until I began walking. I'm still in shock about what happened, but it was a great experience. I knew now what I've been clouded by our friendship.

It was all clear who I wanted to be with, who I should be with. I couldn't wait to find out what he thought... what could this turn into? I smile at the thought. It's 7 a.m. I'm starving, so after putting on clothes, I decide to grab breakfast and coffee for Austin and I. I head to catering, grabbing bagels and coffees, and heading back to the bus.

I see they go on pretty early today, but Phil is already up, drinking coffee or tea. He sits at the table on his laptop, and I grab mine, sitting across from him.

"You're glowing." He says. "I've never seen you looking like this." He says. I look at him, trying not to smile.
"Phil..." I say.
"Glowing." He says before turning his attention to his laptop. "Excuse me." He says, grabbing his laptop and walking to the back lounge, I assume to Skype with his girlfriend. I feel my face heat up, embarrassed, now I know they know.

For a while I'm sitting at my laptop, blogging, editing pictures, answering tweets. I have my own little fan base growing from the pictures I've been taking on tour, I grin widely at the comments I'm receiving.

"Morning." I hear Austin's voice, and my heart skips a beat.
"Good morning." I smile up at him. He sits across from me, and I push the bagel to him and continue typing up the last few days I forgot to blog about.
"What time is Felicity coming?" He asks. I look up at him, shocked, I totally forgot with all of the things that have happened.

"Shit... around nine." I say looking at my phone, "I completely forgot." I say giggling a bit and looking up at him again. He looks focused on his bagel. I can't help but smile. He looks up at me and grins too. I hope and wait he says something about what happened but, he doesn't bring it up. I decide to wait, until he says something.

When Felicity comes I realize how much I missed her. If Austin was my best friend, Felicity was my sister. I wrapped my arms around her neck so tightly, I thought I might have started choking her. Felicity, had long dark hair and green eyes. She was gorgeous. I've been friends with her, for a really long time. I told her everything, and boy, did I have news for her.

"You WHAT!?" She says, her green eyes are bulging out of her head. A second before that, I was sure I was going to get the beer she was drinking to my face. I nod quickly biting my lip. The boys where out, doing their interviews, and a signing before their show at four.

"Felicity, I don't know... it got me thinking..."
"You love him don't you, but not just love him, you're in love with him... it's all clear now." She says taking tilting her head back and finishing her beer.

"I... I don't know... it's like the whole world stopped." I say staring off into space, re-living last night's events. I sigh.
"You've always loved him." She asserts. "You've always loved Austin..." she grabs another beer and leans against the counter. "And he has always loved you... Why do you think your exes never worked!?"
"I love Austin and I know he loves me, but I don't know if he loves me." I emphasize love, that time. "Friends have sex, right?" I say biting my fingernail nervously. "It doesn't mean anything, what if it didn't mean anything to him?"

"Well you never know until you ask." She says. "I think he is in love with you. He probably always was. You know he always kept an eye on you." She says sticking her finger at me. "Like he wanted you, but thought you wanted someone else." She tries picking out her words. "The way he looks at you, it's like he's looking at you on your wedding day, like he never wants to change the way he looks at you, in that moment." She sighs.

"It sounds to good to be true." I say, "Plus, Austin can do so much better. So much prettier, and funnier, and everything."
"I want to punch you..." She scoffs. But I mean it. I'm sitting here thinking about my best friend in this whole different way. What a new perspective. I did want to know what Austin thought of last night, what he always has thought. Did he see me as more than a friend or could that be all in my head.
"We better get going," I stand up looking at the time on my phone. "Showtime."
We catch the boys, before the show begins, their warming up, the usual. They all hug Felicity, welcoming her to the tour for a few weeks. Austin smiles and waves to me and I smile back.

"Austin, can we talk?" I say quietly.
"Of course." He says, and leads me where no one could see us.
"Last night..." I begin. "Are you alright with it?"
"Yeah, I mean it happens right?"

Austin.

"Friends sometimes venture into sex, you know... I-It was nothing." I lie. "A-Are you alright with it? You didn't feel anything did you?" I wonder. If she says something... then I know, it was real... Right now I'm scared, like a little child of what she might say...

Lily.

"No, I was just making sure, that everything was going to be alright between us." I say, lying straight to his face. My heart aches a bit. I wanted him to feel something, I wanted this friendship to move to the next level.

"Best friends forever." He says, the intro begins playing, he puts his forehead to mine, and I wish he would lay his lips onto mine. He doesn't. I feel tears sting my eyes as he walks away, I wish he felt something. I wish he felt what I had felt. The crowd rises to the occasion, their cheers shattering everything. My heart drops into my stomach, my eyes are now over flowing with tears. It meant nothing to him, nothing but sex. I grab my camera and without even watching their set, I head to the bus.

I go into my bunk and take the earphones I use and plug them into my phone, I pull the blankets over my head and let myself cry, and cry, and cry until no tears were left. Just sex. Nothing more. Just friends, nothing more.

Comments

I loved this!
INeedYourLove INeedYourLove
8/14/13
thank you! :)
TheStorm TheStorm
8/11/13
This was so cute! ^,^