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I'm A Monster (An Austin Carlile Fanfiction)

Chapter 21

After all all of the guys agreed to being my best men they left the house. I turned to look at Alan who's gaze was fixated on the carpeted floor. "Hey Alan, what's up dude?" I asked him getting worried about my best friend. "N-Nothing, I'm fine." He stuttered out. "Is it the whole best man thing? Do you not want to be one of my best men at the wedding? If you don't you can just tell me." The small guy shook his head vigorously messing up his ginger hair. "Of course I want to be one of your best men, it'd be my honour. It's just I've seen loads of pictures of Maddie and Andy recently and it's just kinda getting to me y'know" I nodded my head in response.
"Why don't me and you go out for a drink then? Get your mind off of things. Maybe find you a girl?" I suggested. "Sure but promise you'll be my wingman and not go off with the girl that you are trying to get for me?" Alan said with a serious face. "I have Ree now, she's the only girl for me. Now his and take a shower you smell, we'll leave about 9pm?" Alan nodded whilst walking up the stairs.
~Alan's Pov~
I think it's time for a little story.
When I was in high school Austin was one of my friends, I wouldn't say best friends just friends. He always got beaten up by the football team or anyone that had a bit of muscle on them. When it first started he stuck up for himself but as it time went on and the bullying got worse he gave up. But one day he was unfortunately walking in the wrong place at the wrong time. Valentina was with the football after their practice and of course Tina being Tina she told them to get him which they did. I was also walking that way because I needed to go to my English room I decided to take the long way. Austin was on the floor curled up into a fetal position, arms wrapped around his head. I shouted his name out of instinct. His arms went limp and he looked like he had passed out. They finally stopped hitting him and walked away in the opposite direction of where I was stood.
I ran over and fell to my knees holding his lifeless body in my hands. I called an ambulance and screamed for help.
I stayed by him in hospital until he was able to be discharged. I didn't leave his side, not once. That was when I realised I had feelings for him.
Over the years my feelings for his have grown a lot stronger than I had of wanted them to. I tried covering up that I was gay by having one night stands with girls on tour and saying I had a major crush on Jenna McDougall. But the thing with Maddie? I don't know, I loved her that much was true but I know that I am 100% into guys. Whenever I think of girls in that way it makes me want to puke. Maddie was just so perfect in every way; the way she laughs and smiles, the way her make up had to be right everyday or she wouldn't leave the house even though she was perfect enough without it. The way I fell for her when I knew deep down that it was wrong.
I jumped in the shower, had a quick wash and got ready for tonight. I put my wet hair in a beanie not bothering to dry it and headed downstairs.
"You ready?" Austin asked me as I walked into the kitchen. I nodded in response. Austin's got out of his seat and we headed for the door. This wasn't really a good idea going drinking with just him tonight because if he gets me white girl wasted I know that everything I've kept a secret will come pouring out of my mouth and I will have no intention to stop. I've gotten drunk with Austin before but I was with the others. I tended to ignore him and hang out with Tino he was the only one in the band that knew I liked Austin and he made sure I never said anything stupid. But now that I don't have him by my side, who knows what is going to happen.
"We're off now babe." Austin shouted, I visibly cringed at the pet name. Austin noticed and gave me a wary look but seemed to brush it off. "Loosen up tonight yeah?" I nodded with a fake smile as Austin set off to the first and hopefully the only bar we will be going to tonight.
"Austin my man." The guy behind the bar said whilst doing a hand shake with Austin. "How's it going man?" The guy asked. "It's good, I'm nearly a married man..." When I heard the word married man I completely zoned out not wanting to be apart of a conversation where the man I love is talking about the one he loves.
After a while we got are drinks. Austin was on his third whiskey whilst I was on my thirteenth. The burning sensation had gone by now and the liquid was sliding down my throat with ease.
"You know what Austin? I love you, I love you sooooo much man and I just love you." I slurred out leaning against his shoulder with partially closed eyes. I was drinking another substance now which still had no burning feeling but was getting me drunk fast!
"I love you too man." Austin said chuckling. "No, I really love you like a lot..." I trailed off not being able to finish my sentence. "Come on, I think it's time we get you home buddy." Austin said whilst wrapping his arms around my slim frame and taking me out of the bar before saying a quick by and thank you to the guy behind the bar. "You've been drinking Austin, you can't drive." I said. "Nope I was having apple juice, you have been drinking." Austin out me in the car and I fell straight to sleep.

Comments

I'm almost crying!!! WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME?!!!!
No!!!!!
oh my god!! no this can not happen! WTF!! Why does he have to die!?!?



Silly Lilley Silly Lilley
11/17/13
NO!!!!
Gabbi Gabbi
11/9/13
Omg......... AUSTIN CAN'T DIE!!!!!!!!!!